healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.
September 1st - Chocolate Chase 5km (33ish Minutes); A very Fun Race, indeed.
September 2nd - 5km Walk with the Dogs
September 3rd – Crossfit; I severely underestimated my strength in this workout. I really need to just figure out how much I can clean as a 5, 3 and 1 rep max. I know that my 1 rep max for back squats is probably about 125-135, and I would estimate that I can probably do 85lb for a Push Jerk, but I always underestimate how much I can clean. I powered through this workout and was the second person done, so although it was very metabolic, I wish I would have used more weight.
6 Push Jerks, 12 Back Squats (from the ground) [65lb]
September 4th – Crossfit; Another great work out! I upped my 1 Rep Max Deadlift 5lb to 165lb, and I figure if I hadn't workout out the day before and wouldn't have been sore I probably could have added another 5lb to that. The girl I was partnered with also used the big leather belt thing for her deadlifts and she said it makes a huge difference in what you can lift. I have never tried lifting with one before. Any thoughts? Next time I want to use the 24in box. Progress! I also worked on my Kipping Pull Ups and I can string 3 together with the thin green band. It is AWESOME. I totally feel more comfortable with the movement, not I just gotta get that strength up!
21-15-9 Deadlifts (I used 105lb), Box Jumps (20in)
September 5th - Crossfit; I will try and put in to words how awful this run was. It was +26 outside. I wore the wrong shorts (usually I run in Capri's, so my thighs glide together nicely) and ended up chafing my inner thighs, and my legs/back were uber sore from my previous workouts. I also didn't fuel properly and was hungry going in to the run and famished after. Boo-urns.
5km for Time
September 6th – Rest
September 7th – Random & Fast; I didn't have a lot of time today for the gym but I did want to go in and try to find out how much I can clean. My gym doesn't have bumper plates, so working up to a weight is hard because my form is just a bit off (I used the lowest bar setting for the squat rack but it sits just a bit too high so I feel like I am not getting enough power). I think I'd be able to power clean 90lb but with the right bar and plates ;)
And that run was great because it was focused on Chocolate.
I LOVE Chocolate.
Breakfast was at 0700hr and in true race day fashion was Eggo's topped with PB Greek Yogurt and Banana. Coffee sucked back before eating to jump start the day.
Reagan and I got to the event around 8:30, which was perfect. We picked up our race pack, our pre-race treat (A 1/2 Banana covered in Chocolate; DELISH) and chatted with my friend from work Anette (who I ran the Santa Shuffle with in December!) and got ready to run. I also ran in to an adorably pregnant Lindsey and an equally adorably-not-pregnant-but-with-a-cute-son Becky.
We started at 9am and the Race wasn't timed, but I think my time was around 33 minutes, which isn't bad considering I haven't "run" in a long time. Reagan finished around the 38 minute mark.
After that I ate my three chocolates as part of the Post-Race Chocolate Treat we got when we finished the race. One was their Salted Caramel (one of my favorites), another had a Marzipan filling and the last chocolate had an Almond and Caramel inside. We also got Chocolate Covered Pretzels! This race rocked! Then we got Starbucks Coffee. I had a Grande Soy Coffee Misto with 1 Pump Pumpkin Spice, just as good as I remembered it to be. I <3 Pumpkin.
Following the Race, I dropped Reagan off and headed home to hang out with the dogs before work. I did some house work and made my supper for the day.
Supper was steamed garden carrots and left over Stuffed Peppers from Saturday night. The peppers were stuffed with steamed shrimp, quinoa, and cucumber mixed with Laughing Cow cheese.
I also took an Apple and a Quest Bar as a snack.
Lunch was easy-peasy, 2 eggs cooked over easy and eating between Annie's Rice Cakes.
I finished off the day with another coffee and a bar of Chocolate. I can never have too much chocolate :)
All in all, it was an excellent Sunday and I hope that Red Deer continues having smaller 5km run/walks like today. It is a great way to feel connected to your community and it gets people of all ages and all fitness levels out.
I wanted to do a follow up to my Religion Post and kind of explain where that came from and what I am feeling.
I in no way intend to offend anyone, put down anyone's beliefs, or be hurtful or derogatory in anyway, so if you feel this from my words, I am sorry.
Facebook. I just hate it. Too many people posting too much stuff about their life, all. the. time. You get sucked in. You feel like you need to keep up with everyone, with people who wouldn't give two shits about you otherwise.
I deleted my Facebook account a year an a half ago as a message to my younger sister who was using it inappropriately to show that no, you didn't need facebook to live.
It was pretty liberating and I didn't miss it at all. People kind of gawked when they found out I didn't have it, and I was okay with being a part of the minority. I learned pretty quick which friends wanted to keep in touch with me and which ones didn't want to put in the effort.
So with this whole Epicure thing I thought it would be smart to open up my FB account again and see if I could network with some more people and maybe get some people interested in hosting a party.
I think my Facebook account had been open for maybe a week? And then I got a message from a previous co-worker.
The message was about God. She wrote how she had been praying for me, that she wasn't sure how much real love I had felt, or if I had ever felt secure, that she prayed for me for my husbands sake (this upset me), and she hoped I could find love in God. God would be the one to fix me and my problems, and nothing else. (This is just a summary of the message)
The message was REALLY long. About a 10-minute read.
I don't even remember the things that I shared with this woman regarding my childhood, my relationship with my biological parents, or what kind of picture I painted for her, but she seemed to have assumed it was pretty awful and that I was lacking in some way?
I am not going to lie. I was totally taken a back by it. I had no idea where it was coming from. This woman was someone who I considered a "friend", someone who I could potentially hang out with outside of work. She is still in her 20's and has young kids, I thought she was pretty relate-able. I had no idea what her beliefs about God were, or that this was how she thought of me.
I carefully composed a response, I wrote that I appreciated her thoughts (I was careful to not use the term prayer), and that I respected how her faith and religion were very important to her values and beliefs. I also expressed that my thoughts about faith were different, but that I believed in being a good person, yada yada yada, just like I wrote in my religion post. I wished her a happy summer. It was short and to the point.
The response I received is what is spurring this post. I found this sentence particularly hurtful:
"There are plenty of nice people in Hell. Just remember, being a good person and being just doesn't save your soul. Only God can do that."
This gets a big'ol W.T.F?
This woman has no idea the unconditional love my step father has given me. For as long as I can remember. He is so supportive. He is so wise. He is the 2nd greatest man and person in my life. She has no idea that his support is what helped me when I was feeling lost or uncertain. He raised me as his own even though he didn't have any obligation to.
This woman has no idea the type of relationship I share with my husband. To pray for me for his sake? What is that supposed to mean? It sounds like she is assuming we are set up to fail because of my "lack of love." Matthias is 100% my perfect counterpart. He inspires me every day to push farther, that I have no limits, and that I can be a better person and a positive change in this world. He is someone who I can share all of my thoughts with and he has been there and seen the type of unhealthy relationship I shared with myself and with my biological parents. He was supportive when I saw a therapist. He read the book "The Five Languages of Love" with me and actually attempts to put in to action things that he read. He listens to me when I talk, all the time. He makes me smile first thing in the morning and wishes me a good sleep every night when he is out of town. We laugh constantly together and I think we communicate very well together. He is the greatest man and person in my life.
This woman doesn't know the close friendships I have with people like Katelyn and Stephanie and Dallas. She doesn't know the love I feel in my heart for these special women, women I hope to have in my life forever.
This woman doesn't know the triumph I feel. For overcoming some difficult road blocks while growing up, for graduating university at 21 years old, buying a house at 22, having a job that I love, and being a part of the Executives for the Union and for the Professional Associate for Nurses in Alberta. I am going places with my life and career. I am about as far from being a failure as you can get, and I am extremely proud of that and my accomplishments.
And lastly, this woman doesn't know the amount of hours I have put in, to self reflection, to counseling, to meditation, to journalling, to figuring out how to feel whole, healthy and happy. Which is something I am very happy and confident about feeling today.
This woman has no right to assume I am less than happy, less than excited for whats to come, less than pleased with my life and the things that I have been through. The fact that she assumed I feel some kind of void or that I don't feel secure or real love is extremely hurtful.
To assume that this "void" means I am going to Hell? Well I am shocked that someone would even think that. That is a pretty shitty thought to have and I feel sorry for her.
We don't get to pick where we came from. But I have chosen to learn from it, to figure my heart, my faith, and my life out, and to move on. I know the direction I am headed.
The conclusion of this whole thing? It was a good reminder that I need to be aware of my assumptions with others. Because I am sure this woman didn't mean to hurt my feelings by them. And if she did? Then that's on her. But I need to be careful to not hurt others with my assumptions, and that is what I will learn from this.
Have you ever felt hurt by another person's assumptions? How did you handle it?
I missed Saturday's Fit Recap so here is a quick run down on my Workouts for the Week. I kept totally up to date on my August Workout Log and that is pretty awesome! I like tracking my exercise this way.
August 25th - Core & Cardio - This workout left me a sweaty mess.
Warm up - 10 Mins on Elliptical
Circuit 1 (3 rounds): Plank (1 min), 10 2-Hand Kettle Bell Swings, 10 Single Hand Kettle Bell Swings each arm, 10 2-Hand Kettle Bell Swings, 10 Goblet Squats (30lb KB)
Circuit 2 (3 rounds): Seated Ab Twists (I think these are also called Russian Twists? 30lb), 10 Lying Leg Raises, 20 Seconds Quick Mountain Climbers
Circuit 3 (3 rounds): Weighted Stability Ball Crunches (10lb held with straight arms above head) x12, 10 Burpees
Barbell Complex Finisher (3 rounds): 10 Romanian Dead Lifts, 10 Push Press, 10 Squats (45lb bar)
August 26th - 60 Minute Hot Yoga Class - I was still sore from Fran and didn't really want to do Naughty Nancy (which was scheduled at Crossfit for this day) so I skipped and did some yoga instead)
August 27th - Rest - I don't know what I did to my back at yoga but OUCH, it was SO tight and sore, I needed the rest.
August 28th - Crossfit - My back was feeling a bit better so I thought I should go to Crossfit. Then I realized they switched the workouts and changed it from Naughty Nancy (5 RFT) to normal Nancy (3RFT). THANK GOD cause this workout killed, but that just proves that Karma will get you if you try and skip a workout. I used a super light weight because I am awful at OHS (my hips are so tight). I was able to do break the 30 reps in to 10 reps for 3 sets which really helped. 90 OHS = death.
400m Run, 30 Overhead Squats (35lb)
August 29th - Rest Day (Traveling) - Was at an Orientation day in Edmonton.
August 30th - Walk the Dogs, 45min Elliptical - Recovering from the travel I guess?
August 31st - Upper Body - Wanted to focus on upper body since I knew the following day I would be running!