healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Monday, December 31, 2012

2013; The Year of Acceptance


ac·cep·tance /akˈseptəns/

noun.

1. The act or process of accepting.
2. The state of being accepted or acceptable.
3. Favorable reception; approval.
4. Belief in something; agreement.

So, Acceptance. I think it is something we all strive for. I have been blogging and focusing on my weight for almost 3 years now. That is over 1000 days. You'd think I had found Acceptance of myself by now, right? Think again.

I wish I could say that I have found it. At times, specifically when I was at my lowest weight, I thought I had. But the excessive calorie counting and mathematics of it tired me out, and I ended up gaining back some weight. Well with weight comes increased anxiety and decreased self esteem.

Throughout 2012 I focused on transitioning away from calorie counting. I feel like I have finally accomplished that, and feel okay with it, so now I want to focus on accepting myself and the body that goes along with it.

Let me clarify. I am by no means overweight or unhealthy. Quite the contrary. I am stronger and faster than ever. I am active, I eat well, mostly whole foods. I am just not there mentally.

How will I work on acceptance?
  1. Monthly updates and reflection on how I am feeling about myself.
  2. Focusing on who I am and what make me, Me.
  3. Only weighing or measuring myself if I can assure it will not cause me anxiety or disappointment.
  4. Focusing on the great things my body does, such as getting me through my marathon training.
  5. Dressing in clothes that make me feel good and proud of my curves, while not looking at the number that is associated with the size.
What is your 2013 word? How have you found acceptance of your body?

Wishing you a safe and happy New Year!

Friday, December 28, 2012

2012 in Review

So who can believe it is already going to be 2013 in a matter of days? Didn't see that one coming. Thank god we made it through 2012.
The HIGHlights
  1. I graduated Nursing School and then got a job that I LOVE.
  2. I bought a house.
  3. Grew my FIRST garden!
  4. I stopped counting Calories.
  5. I got engaged.
  6. I We got a New Puppy, Hank.
  7. I ran lots of Races, including 2 half marathons, a 10km, 2 5km's, an 8 km, and a Spartan Race.
  8. I fell in love with Crossfit.
  9. Travelled to Vegas with my love.
The lowLIGHTS
  1. Disordered Thinking remains a part of my life.
  2. Family Struggles - I try to keep this private and off the blog ;)
  3. Hypothalamic Amennorhea and Low WBC Count.
  4. 2 Words: Wisdom Teeth.
  5. Got kicked off my Soccer Team.
  6. Weight Re-gain.
And those are just the things I blogged about!

I really transitioned this year. I can now add Fiance, Registered Nurse, and Home Owner to my ever expanding list of Labels.

I am ending off 2012 happier and more sure of myself than I started 2012. Coming up next? My 2013 Word!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Monday Musings [2]

1. Merry Crossfitmas
5 Rounds For Time

  • 20 Double Unders
  • 10 Deadlifts at 70%ish of 1RM (My 1RM is 125#, so I did 85#)
  • 5 Hand Release Push Ups
CASHOUT: 50 Sit Ups
2. My house has been hijacked. 6 People, 4 Dogs, and 2 Cats is way too much for my size house.
3. I was totally stressed about December 21st, 2012. Amie = Ball of Nerves, all day long. I even forced myself to stay up until Midnight just to know that I "lived another day". Thank goodness it is over.
4.  I nearly died laughing at this. Please go read it now.
5. 

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Conflicted

So. Close. To. Christmas.

I hate to sound like the Ebenezer Scrooge, but is anyone else wanting this season to be over? I am so ready just to get back to normal life. Bah Humbug.

Yesterday, I watched a pretty sweet documentary. It was called Vegucated. About 3 people who go from eating the standard American Diet to Vegan for 6 weeks. I really liked the movie. It highlighted on the discrepancies of companies who claim to be Organic, Free-Range, ext.. and how they are lacking standards with the care of their animals. It got me thinking about animal abuse, animal rights, and all those tree-hugger issues that I am so on the fence about. I love animals, Obvi, I have 5 pets of my own. 6 Counting Matthias. Haha.

When I became a Vegetarian over 2 years (!! Woah) ago, well, no one thought it would stick, and it totally has. I didn't make the decision at that time based on the rights of animals. It was based on health and weight loss. Since that time I have spent lots of time researching plant based, whole food diets, the health benefits of being a vegetarian and a vegan and so on. I spent almost 3 months as a almost-vegan during the summer of 2011 after watching Forks Over Knives. I felt pretty darn good. There were some flaws in my eating (excessive restricting, structured eating times, so it basically ran my life), but eating the types of foods I ate made me feel light, whole, and energized.

At this point in my life, I continue to eat Eggs, Cheese (in moderation), Yogurt, and Half and Half (sometimes in lieu of Soy), and Milk Chocolate (although I most definitely prefer dark). I own a stick of butter, but I use it only for baking, which I try to pawn off on co-workers. I like laughing cow cheese, but really, that is so so processed that I don't even know if you can call it cheese.

I know that I can never be a strict Vegan. That is too extreme and to me, life isn't about being extreme. But I feel like I could be doing more, like I could be doing "Better". Maybe it is because I publicly announced that I wanted to transition to a Vegan Diet as a part of my Transitional Year and that year is nearly up? Who knows.

What are your thoughts on being a Vegetarian, Vegan, and everything in between?

Monday, December 17, 2012

Monday Musings [1]

You see a lot of different feature days on different blogs, like Thankful Thursday (which I have participated in, in the past), Friday Favorites, Thursday Things, Friend Making Monday, Tuesday Things, you get the idea.

Now I want to continue to focus my thoughts and the overall content of my blog on healthy living, running, and crossfitting, but I also think it would be nice to have a weekly post that is a random collection of my thoughts throughout the week. So, welcome friends, to Monday Musings.
  1. Being sick blows. I hate hate hate not working out regularly even though I know that I can't if I want to get better. Matthias thinks the cold has been harder on me than him because he took Cold FX. Pssshhh. I haven't been to crossfit in almost a week, haven't run in over a week, and barely made it through 45min on the Stepper yesterday. Le sigh.
  2. Need a new therapeutic approach to increasing a patients self confidence? See below: Works every time :) 
  3. Who else loves videos of funny cats? That alone should be prescribed as medicine for the common cold. Eeer... unless you want to end up wheezing and gasping for air because you are laughing so hard. This video in particular kills me.
  4. I have in-laws coming on Saturday and have done no prep on the food I am going to cook, the cleaning of the house, or anything of that sort. Want to help?
  5. These Oreos are now on the "No Buy List"  Why on the No Buy List you ask? Because I bought a box on Saturday, and it is already GONE. Ooops.

Is it January Yet?


BOOM.

Please excuse the lack of communication this last week. I am just on the up-swing of an awful cold/cough. Your regular broadcasting should resume shortly ;)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

The Great Food Blogger Cookie Swap!

So this is my first year participating in the Great Food Blogger Cookie Swap and I couldn't be more excited to press publish on this post!

I was matched with Megan, Lisa, and Destini.

So, now the big question. What type of cookies did I want to bake and send?

Well, I knew I wanted to do something Unique, and Christmas-y. I decided on Pecan Pie Cookies with a twist. I used Eggnog in place of the Whipping Cream! They turned out divine.
Eggnog Pecan Pie Cookies
Yield; 36 Cookies
Recipe Based on Land'o'Lakes

Ingredients
Cookie
  • 1 cup firmly packed brown sugar 
  • 3/4 cup butter, softened 
  • 1 large egg
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla 
  • 2 cups all-purpose flour 
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
Filling
  • 1 cup chopped pecans 
  • 1/2 cup firmly packed brown sugar 
  • 1/4 cup eggnog 
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla
Directions
Heat oven to 350°F. Combine all cookie ingredients except flour and baking powder in large bowl. Beat at medium speed until creamy. Reduce speed to low; add flour and baking powder. Beat until well mixed.

Shape dough into 1 1/4-inch balls. Place 2 inches apart onto ungreased cookie sheets. Make indentation in each cookie with thumb; rotate thumb to hollow out slightly.

Combine all filling ingredients in small bowl; fill each cookie with 1 rounded teaspoon filling. Bake for 8 to 12 minutes or until lightly browned. Cool 1 minute; remove from cookie sheets.


The cookies I received in the mail:
  • Reindeer Poop Chocolate Truffles from Kristy
  • Cardamom Coffee Double Chocolate Cookies from Erin
  • Candy Cane, Ginger, and Fruitcake Sugar Cookies from Laura 
Tis' been a tasty year!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Favorite Things Christmas Swap {2012}

I participated in the Favorite Things Christmas Swap this year and had a blast! I was paired with Helene over at Healthy Frenchie. It has been awesome reading her blog and getting to know her a little better. I was super excited to receive my box from her in the mail.

Inside my Christmas Package:
  • Speculoos Cookies (yes. the same type that is featured in TJ's Cookie Butter. I may or may not be researching recipes so I can make it myself at home)
  • Christmas Ornaments
  • Candles & Candle Holders that smelled SO good
  • Advent Calender (YUM)
  • Gift Card Box (So Cute. Can't wait to use it and give it to someone else!)

This is something I can't wait to participate in again next year! Thank you Leigh and Lindsay for hosting!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Will Run for Chocolate and Medals! {Race Recap}

On December 1st I participated in the New-to-Red-Deer 5km Salvation Army Santa Shuffle. I kind of thought of this race as my unofficial start to Marathon training because for the month of December I have added scheduled Runs (3-4/week) to increase my base mileage.

The main reason I signed up for this event? Every participate got a medal. Love Medals! I add them to my Race Collage so I will pretty much do any run I can that has a medal involved and why I get so made when I do a run there isn't one.
I ran the race with my friend Annette from work! It made the time fly by.

Weather was definitly chilly. -14 but with the Wind Chill it felt like -21 outside with snow.
 I tested out my new Running Shoes and Winter Running Gear and stayed warm :) I used the Attached Balaclava on the hood for the first few minutes but when I was warm enough I took it off. Notice the dark spot on the Left Shoe? Well... I was wearing in the shoes (does anyone else do this?) around the house and decided to bake cookies. I melted my butter in the Microwave and when I pulled it out, it splashed on my Brand. New. Kicks. :\ Never doing that again.
A lovely surprise? Free Lindt Advent Calendars at the end! YUM.

We finished in just over 36 minutes, but considering the congestion at the start of the race I think we would have finished at around the 32 minute mark.

Fun times to be had. Let the marathon training begin.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

December Goals

Well I really dropped the ball on my November Goals. Oops!
  1. Walk the dogs 3x per week. Going to be more challenging with the chillier weather but I will make it a commitment! - Fail. They got roughly 1 walk in per week. Tuck has a sore hip, so I don't want to over exercise him. I probably should be getting the other ones out to walk though.
  2. Continue focusing on #125. This week has been going good so far. I have finally been consistently tracking my food. Even though I have gone over my calorie count for each day (not by much) it has been good to see and realize what exactly I have been eating. Portion control people! - I talked about this one here. I am not focusing on a number any longer. I am pretty sure I gained weight this month, but that is Okay because I am eating (mostly) healthy food.
  3. Run Twice a Week. Yup! I am upping it. With me no longer doing a weekly spin class (Those bastards upped the price), I will be exchanging that workout for another run :) - Another big ol' fail. I got 1x run in a week. This will change in December because I have now scheduled runs in to my weeks to get my weekly mileage up before marathon training.
  4. Practice Yoga 1x per week. I think this will be much more reasonable. - I failed to practice yoga at ALL this month! I got caught up in the Crossfit Craze ;)
  5. Meal Plan. I have had troubles with my meal planning since starting straight Evening's and this month I would like to start getting back in to the habit of it. Another fail. No meal planning on this lady's fridge.
So about that... hahaha. Lets see if December can be a little more on track shall we?

December Goals
  1. Track All Food - Self Explanatory. I need to stay in check during the Holidays.
  2. Walk Hank & Rosie x3/week and Tuck x1/week - NEED to get this as a regular habit.
  3. Take time for me - Don't want to get too caught up in the hustle and bustle around me. I want to be able to just relax a bit. Some wine, a good book, maybe a bubble bath.
  4. Eat out less - I had a few functions in November that required me to go out of town and eat at restaurants. I don't like this because often Restaurant meals are so unhealthy. Although I can't place a limit on it, I want to be more conscious of eating out and what I chose if I do eat at a restaurant.
An Update; So I talked about not having my period for 10 months, having a Low WBC count and the Progesterone Challenge test that I was taking. Well, it was successful. After 10 months of NOT having a period I had a hormone induced one this month! I have it scheduled in my book when my next period should be! I hope it comes naturally in December.