healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Thankful Thursday [5]

Today I had an awesome 8km run, clocking in at 46 min (a 9:38/mile pace). Woah, speedy. I was laying on my bed reading blogs, wanting with all my heart to be lazy. I looked out my window and saw the sun. Forced myself to get dressed and went to my car to get my running shoes. The second I opened the door of my brothers house I new it was going to be an awesome run. The sun was out, there were no clouds in the sky, and it was warm. Like spring-is-really-here warm.
So today, on the loveliest of days, I am thankful for spring. Although summer wins as my favorite season, there is just something refreshing about the new buds, the changing grass, the transition from brown to green that Alberta goes through.

My favorite weather is this: Roughly +10-12, Sunshine, No clouds, light breeze, no bugs. That is today. Bliss.

Short post today. I am in dire need of gas and a coffee before my evening shift. 7 more to go! Holy smokes.

Whats your favorite season? Does the weather ever effect your mood? 

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

What I Ate Wednesday [6]

Hello friends! Only 8 shifts until I am done my final preceptorship! Where the heck did the time go? I enjoyed a spin class and ab workout today. Lovely stuff.
Onto my eats:
Breakfast: Almond Banana Oats (1/3c oats, 1tsp chia seeds, 1/2tbsp hemp hearts, 1 small banana, 1c water, 10 chopped almonds, 1tbsp natural raw almond butta)
Snack: Fruit to go & Maple Iced Coffee (new. addiction. yum.)
Lunch: Ginormous Salad with Honey Balsamic Dressing and 1/2 baked sweet potato
Snack: Lunch didn't fill me up, so I ate a Plain Rice Cake with 1/2tbsp Natural PB, and 2tbsp Peanut Butter Granola and an Apple
Supper: 1/3c cooked millet, 1c mixed steamed veggies (brussels, beans, peppers, cauli, broccoli, ext..) tossed with 1tsp Olive Oil, and mixed with the 2nd 1/2 of my baked sweet potato, Raw Veggies on the Side
Snack: 1/2c Eden Organic Cherry Apple Sauce mixed with 1/4c Astro Organic Plain Yogurt
Snack 2: Starving after my evening shift! Munched on some oh-so-delicious looking prunes :)

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Not Good Enough

Just finished my Sunday long run! I ran 9.75miles in 98min, meaning I kept a pace of 10min 10sec/mile! NICE. The first part of my run was speedy and awesome, I realized why it was so speedy when I turned around... I was running with the wind. The second half of my run was challenging and cold, I ran in to the wind. The. Entire. Time. No joke here people, Red Deer can be a windy place and today it was a chilly wind. I finished with frozen hands and a numb face. NICE.

So lets take a minute to discuss Soccer. One of my goals for myself was to join this sport because I thought it would be a fun and easy way to meet people and squeeze in a little exercise. I wasn't big into sports (besides dance) when I was in school. This means that I only half-assed it in gym, and although I managed to maintain a B (?? not too sure how) throughout the years, I never excelled in any sport. I also was never involved in other summer sports in my youth. This means when I joined soccer I knew 2 things: Get the ball and kick it in the net of the other team.
I didn't understand the set up of players, I didn't understand the cray cray foot work, I didn't understand a lot of the lingo and other tid bits in order to be a "winning player". This is why I wanted to join a Tier 3 team. It was RECREATIONAL. For FUN. Tier 3 is the "most recreational" league when compared with Tier 2 and Tier 1. I knew I wouldn't stand a chance in those tiers as all I knew how to do was run. I was very excited when a Tier 3 team emailed me asking me to join their team because they needed players. I even scored a goal in my first game!! Our team never practiced throughout the week, even though I brought it up every week at our games. I knew I needed to work on my footwork and I needed to work on my defensive-ness and "attack". I am fairly passive, and when the majority of people who are playing the game are larger than me (quite a few are overweight), I don't feel strong enough to tackle into them to try and get the ball away.

Yeah, I know I wasn't the greatest. But I tried HARD every week. It got frustrating at times, team members yelling different things that I should be doing when I was on the field, but I learned the basics of how to set myself up and I got quite a bit better since my first game.

We had our last game of the season this past week. I scored (!!!) my second goal! It was exciting despite losing 5-2. We ended up being 2nd overall in the tier, which I thought was pretty good. I asked the team how I could join the outdoor league in the summer and the ladies were nice enough to tell me that there was a meeting coming up and an email would be sent out soon.

I was excited to go out and buy some cleats, and learn how to play outdoor! That was, until I recieved this email:
"Hey Amie,
So there have been some concerns brought to me by the team before the of the outdoor season this year, one of them being the ability of our team to be really competitive. I think that you are a really awesome team player, and your dedication and cheerleader attitude really bring a lot to the team. However, I also feel that your skill level is not yet at the level that the team is currently looking at for our upcoming seasons; therefore we will not be asking you to play with us this season. You have a lot of potential, and I think that you could easily learn a lot more and hone your skills better with a less competitive team. If you would like to be placed on the list of players looking for a team, you can send an email with your information to Thanks again for your committment to the team this past year, and good luck on your soccer future!"
Woah. That kind of threw me for a loop. This is Tier 3. The lowest tier in the league. And they are telling me I'm not good enough to be on their RECREATIONAL team?

It felt a little bit like I was smacked in the face. I was one of the quickest members of the team. I was definitely among the top 5 for fittest. I brought it up, at every. single. game. that I wanted to practice, but no one else was dedicated enough to join me. Fuck, we didn't even have a COACH.

I cried a bit. Matthias hugged me. After we got back together he came and watched every game and he always said that I was one of the better players of the team despite my lack of crazy foot skills.

I wrote back asking if this was applicable to indoor next season and she responded with a "Yes, most likely." Should I mention that only 7 players made it out to the last game? We barely had enough to play. And here I am "not good enough."

Alas, I am team-less.

Is that going to stop me?

You know, it would be really easy to quit. To say, yeah, I didn't like it too much. Not tell anyone what really happened. Leave the "shame" out of it. But that would be a lie. I had fun when I was playing, despite not being the best. I liked running after the ball, trying my hardest to get better. I wasn't competing against anyone else. I was out there for me. It was a symbol of how far I have come. The 190lb lazy Amie would never join organized sports. The 130lb active Amie finds fun in everything active. Large, Average, or Small, there will always be people in life who will try and make you feel like you aren't good enough. They will only be right if you let them be.
I can totally reflect and see how frustrating it would be for seasoned soccer players to try and explain to a novice how the game works when all you are doing is playing games and not practicing. It is equally as frustrating as trying to figure out the game when you can't practice.

I already emailed the Association with my contact information to join an outdoor team. I play soccer because it's fun. Not because I want to win or compete. I am hopefully going to be picked up by a team that actually has a coach and who practices.

I shall bring my cheerleader attitude to a new team, one that might accept me more, and regardless of how we do in the season I will learn, become a better healthier person, and know in my heart that competition isn't what is important, having a good time is.

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Thankful Thursday [4]

I had a WIAW post all lined up. I was putting on the finishing touches of my pictures and my computer shut down :( I had just come off of an evening shift and was waaaayyy too tired to start over. My appologies friends, but WIAW will resume next week.

As I count down my shifts left of my preceptorship, I realize how ready I feel to enter the nursing profession and how grateful I am that I sought a university education straight out of high school. Nursing has taught me so much, and it is applicable to all aspects of my life.

Life Lessons from Nursing Education:
  1. Organization is key. I am one of those cray cray people who lives by their agenda. Nursing is so busy. Throw onto that a full exercise schedule, multiple support courses, and being the president of the nursing society. I didn't plan a single event unless I could consult my agenda first. I truly believe that a healthy life is an organized life.
  2. It's okay to cry. I am usually busting with emotion in the form of tears. I have cried over marks, comments from teachers and peers, situations with patients, nursing society, you get the idea ;) I have learned that it is totally okay for me to acknowledge the emotions that accompany stress. Everyone works through them differently. Me? I like a bawl-fest.
  3. Don't take what others say about you to heart. This was a hard one for me. Nursing has really reinforced that I need to keep other peoples perceptions of me in perspective. I can't make everyone like me. I can't help what other people say or do. I can always chose to react in a professional and kind way.
  4. Take care of yourself. Mentally. Physically. Spiritually. There were times when I didn't have time to sit down and watch a full hour long TV show because I had so much homework. I took the time that I could, and maximized it as much as possible to help maintain my sanity.
  5. You can do more than you thought you could. Nursing really pushed my comfort zones, and I have come to believe that that is what life is about. It's about making those memories, feeling uncomfortable, and learning.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Recipe: Peanut Butter Cheesecake Swirl Cookies

  • 1 Package Reduced Fat Crescent Rolls
  • 1/4 cup Reese's Pieces (smashed into bits)
  • 1/4 cup Chocolate Chipits
  • 1/4 cup Natural Peanut Butter
  • 1/2 cup Reduced Fat Cream Cheese
  1.  Unroll package of crescent dough onto counter, separate in half and pinch the scored lines together to create 2 uniform rectangles.
  2. Beat Cream Cheese and Peanut Butter together. Add Stevia if you wish.
  3. Spread cream cheese mixture onto rectangles.
  4. Top with chocolate chips & Reese's Pieces.
  5. Roll each rectangle up the make the "swirl"
  6. Refrigerate for 2 hours.
  7. Preheat oven to 350.
  8. Remove from refrigerator and cut each circle into 8 pieces (16 in total)
  9. Place on greased cookie sheet or parchment paper and bake for 10-12 min until done.
  10. ENJOY!

Monday, March 19, 2012

Guest Post: Yoga and the Athlete

I love yoga. But alas, I don't do it enough. Here is a guest post from Sasha on the benefits of Yoga!

Yoga and the Athlete

Yoga is an incredible physical, spiritual and mental form of exercise that is tremendously beneficial to everyone. Yoga is deeply appreciated for its ability to improve one's flexibility, inner peace and strength. A low-intensity activity like yoga makes it beginner-friendly and fun for all prospective participants. It is also effective and advantageous for fit athletes as well.

Runners are known for experiencing frequent side effects as result of poor pre or post-stretching and an occasionally diminishing technique as they progress through their run.  However, sometimes even if one has correct technique and practices accurate forms of stretching before and after, excruciating pain can still circulate. That's just one reason distance runners and treadmill runners, specifically, can benefit significantly from yoga.

Running long distances can certainly strain leg muscles and contribute to a body imbalance. The Vrikshasana pose is a successful cure for improving lost balance as a result of distance running. Vrikshasana utilizes almost all bodily parts (excluding the toes) and involves stretching upward whilst lifting the heels off the ground. This is an unbeatable method of stretching and a successful way to improve one's technique that may have gotten worse from running.

A proper breathing technique is critical for distance runners. In order to maintain a steady distance of running or even to increase the mileage, a correct way of breathing is essential. Yoga is renowned for its immense success in improving one's breathing patterns. The sukhasana pose is basically a seated, cross-legged pose that contributes to good posture and therefore, better breathing.

As previously mentioned, stretching is imperative for long distance runners. After running, it's normal for muscles to feel tight or sore, especially when walking up and down stairs. The trikonasana position is excellent for proper stretching and relaxing the muscles before a long run, which can prevent this tight feeling in the muscles. This method of yoga also promotes the strengthening of muscles, in addition to accurate stretching.

Yoga can provide immense benefits for all athletes, including triathletes. Yoga is useful for these specific athletes because it utilizes the muscles and internal areas essential for running. Several triathletes have stated that certain stability poses found by practicing yoga works the critical running muscles. Yoga experts also firmly believe that the flexibility aspects used in yoga assist in injury prevention and body recovery. Triathletes are active in three very physically demanding sports in a very short period of time, therefore leading to extremely tight and over-utilized muscles (like with runners, but to a higher degree). Yoga can prevent the potential stiffness brought on by such a strenuous workout. (Petretti, 2011) recommends the Eka Pada Rajakapotasana pose, commonly known as the pigeon pose, helps to fully open the muscles of the hips, stopping the possibility of stiff muscles immediately.

A second pose that works wonderfully for the triathlete is the dolphin pose. This pose does a stellar job of stretching out the hamstrings, which is a big priority for triathletes. also states that this pose caters to cyclists because it "mirrors the proper upper body alignment". Clearly, yoga is a crucial component in improving a triathlete's performance.

Yoga is an undeniable activity that can offer numerous benefits to any kind of athlete, whether you're a beginner or a seasoned yoga-goer. It does not discriminate. Various types of athletic trainers strongly suggest that athletes incorporate yoga into their daily exercise regimen in order to achieve stronger endurance, flexibility and balance. Ultimately, doing a few yoga poses before a long run or marathon will certainly relax and stretch the muscles, significantly cutting down the chance of extreme pain or an injury afterwards.

Don’t be worried if it’s your first time either!  Check out my blog post on what to expect during your first class over on my blog.

Sasha Britton is a health and fitness buff with a love for beauty from the inside out, yoga and vegan living. Check out her personal blog and where she will soon be contributor with Gymsource Home Gyms (@SashsaBFit).

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Saturday, March 17, 2012


Saw this over on Lindsey's Blog and thought it would be a fun one to post! Put a link in the comment section to yours and I will pop over and read em'

A – Age – 21
B –Breakfast today – My favorite oats; 1/4c Rogers, 1/4c Almond Milk, 1/2 Banana, Tsp Chia, Tbsp Flax, Tbsp Cocoa, Topped with a scoop of Kraft Natural PB
C - Currently craving – Minimalist Running Shoes, off to research my next purchase! Any suggestions?
D – Dinner tonight – A delicious Meatless Chicken Burger and Roasted Brussel Sprouts!
E – Favorite type of exercise – Oh gosh, how to pick? I think it is a tie between running and cycling.
F- Irrational fear – TORNADO's.
G – Gross food – Bacon. Ew.
H – Hometown – Born in Toronto, but I call Red Deer, Alberta home.
I – Important – My health
J – Current favorite jam – Somebody that I used to Know, Not sure of the artist?
K – Kids? The pups; Rose and Tuck, and The kits (kitties); Oliver and Olivia
L -  Current location – Red Deer, Alberta, Canada.
M – Most recent way I spent money – I bought a bread maker :)
N – Something I need – Banana's
O – Occupation – 16 short shifts away from being a Registered Nurse!!! 
P – Pet Peeve – When people are late.
Q – Quote – Be the change you wish to see in the world - Ghandi
R – Random fact about me – When I was little I would always snoop to find out what my Christmas Presents were. My mom always hid them in the same spot, and after she would buy them she'd be like "Don't go in my bedroom..." One year, she was smart enough to wrap them the same day she bought them. I was equally smart enough to zacto knife the tape, look at what I was getting, and re-tape them.
S- Favorite healthy snack – Yogurt, Bananas, Peanut Butter
T – Favorite treat – Scones and Cookies
U – Something that makes me unique – I can't stick out my tongue. I am "tongue-tied" - AKA I have a tight frenulum.
(Not me)
V – Favorite vegetable – Broccoli
W – Today’s workout – 45 min on the Stepper machine.
X – X-Rays I’ve had – Dentist
Y – Yesterday’s highlight – Last Clinical Conference EVER. Cooking birthday supper and hanging out with my love :) I miss him when I am in Edmonton.
Z – Time zone - Mountain Standard.

Friday, March 16, 2012

Thankful Thursday [3]

 Today's Thankful Thursday comes on a Friday. Why you ask? Because today I am celebrating the birthday of my role model, one of my best friends, one of my main supports in life, my dad.

In celebration of his birthday I baked him a Grass-Fed Beef Round Roast. Yes. The Vegetarian cooked the self proclaimed Meatatarian a roast. I also made a Roasted Apple Pecan Salad, Stuffed Zucchini, and Garlic Mashed Potatoes. For dessert.... a 3 Tier Black Forrest Cake ---> HOMEMADE. It wasn't the prettiest (aka I suck at adding whip cream and chocolate shavings to cakes) but it was really freaking good. The entire meal was delicious. He even told me he liked the zucchini even though he usually doesn't like them. I rock.

So does he though. And that's why I am thankful for him.

He is not my biological father, in fact, my mother and him have not been together for 16 years now. They broke up when I was 7, but he remained a main part of my life. He sort of "adopted" me as his daughter because my own biological dad was MIA. He took me to dance class, took me to supper, payed for school supplies and clothes, and so much more. He was always there for me, even when I moved away from Red Deer to Dawson Creek. He would pay to fly me down twice a year for 2 weeks. He taught me how to be a good person and instilled a solid set of values in me. If it were not for his love and support, I would not be the young woman I am today.

He is a genuinely good person. I moved back to Red Deer following High School so I could be closer to him. When Matthias and I broke up, I moved in with him, and have been living here ever since. When my sister could no longer live with my mother, she moved in here with us (and he is not her father either). He takes her to and from school when I am up in Edmonton. He is now teaching her how to be a good person, just as he did with me. He has put up with my pets (2 dogs and 2 cats) for the last year and a half. He even agreed to Matthias moving in this past January so that we could save for a house.

He has provided me with so much opportunity in life. I can't even put in to words how important he is to me. I hope he knows just how much I love him and appreciate him. I don't say it enough, but I am so thankful for his influence.

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Kony 2012

Thankful Thursday will be happenin' tomorrow!
See ya then :)

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

What I Ate Wednesday [6]

Here are my eats from today!
Breakfast; Giant Raisin Scone from Sunterra, and a Large Banana, which I smothered with Natural PB
Snack; 1/2 Bolthouse Smoothie
Lunch; A Big ol' plate of Raw Veggies and Strawberries
Snack; Other half of my Bolthouse Smoothie and 2 (yum) Homemade Peanut Butter Cheesecake Swirl Cookies (only 100 calories each - and so worth it!)
Supper; Orzo Feta Salad atop a bed of Spinach, a Chocolate Truffle and Apple Chips
Snack; Orange glad I didn't say Banana? Cause I'm not. I friggen love banana's.

Loving the extra hour of sunlight at night! In other news... I officially have my first post-school job! A casual line on Labor and Delivery :) Exciting times.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Duathlon Training

Hey, remember that Duathlon I thoughtfully spontaneously signed up for last fall? Yeah. That one. Well! Today I officially started my "training" for it. I am not really following any particular plan.. I just plan to gradually increase my mileage, and do one - two brick work outs a week.

Brick workouts (for those who don't know) are a back-to-back workout of Running and Cycling. Today I did my first mini-brick. I ran 3.5km in 18min, and immediately following attended an hour long spin class. I pushed myself. Hard. By the end (57min) I had rode 21.5km.

That means that on top of the already challenging (but super kick A$$) workout I did today, I will need to bike an additional 18.5km (almost another hour), and then run 10km. Plus, I will need to do the first 3.5km in the trails (increasing the difficulty, aka lowering my time), and face whatever weather elements I am presented with. Clearly a spontaneous decision. Oh yeah! And the day before I will be doing the Spartan Race... so I will clearly be rested and ready to uh... give it my all? Not like I should have signed up for the Sprint Duathlon or anything... Go Big or Go Home. Full Distance for this gal.

But I do well with spontaneous (Decision to go Veg... 10km run... 1/2 marathon, all come to mind as spontaneous choices), so I imagine with a little lot of hard work and some buckets of sweat I will cross the finish line last, and that's all that matters ;)

Monday, March 12, 2012

Respect Your Fullness

5. Respect Your Fullness. Listen for the body signals that tell you that you are no longer hungry. Observe the signs that show that you're comfortably full. Pause in the middle of a meal or food and ask yourself how the food tastes, and what is your current fullness level?
Ahhh... another principle that I struggle with. This is something that I have gotten better with, but there is still much much room for improvement. I tend to be a portion-er because if I don't portion my food then I will easily over eat. I enjoy the act of eating... so much so, that I tend to do it too fast. I need to remind myself at.every.meal that I should slow down and savor my food. I do this with Matthias too. I have observed that I eat a lot slower than he does, and cueing him to slow down helps me to slow down as well.

As for hunger/fullness... because I portion and plan, fullness is more a state of "having no more left to eat" because I have already eaten what I need to. This is counterproductive to this principle. I will eat my portioned meal, and stop. Or, I will eat things that aren't part of the plan, then eat my portioned meal on top of that. I have this twisted mind frame of being a poor student. I don't like to waste any food, so if I veer off plan (ahem, often), then I try to get back on plan by eating on top of what I have already eaten. I struggle with this at least once a week. Any tips or strategies?

 Here are some things I am going to try this week to recognize my fulness:
  1. Tell myself that I am "taking a break," not "stopping." That is a reminder that I can keep eating if I want to.
  2. Eat my favorite things on the plate first. I always "saved the best for last" and now I feel deprived of the things I wanted most when I get full. 
  3. Recognize the following symptoms of fullness:
    • Eating pace begins to slow.
    • The taste buds begin to get 'bored' with the flavor of the meal. The food doesn't taste as good as when the meal first began. 
    • A sense of distraction begins to take root. Conversation with dining partners starts to pick up, or thoughts drift from the meal. 
    • A 'sigh' or burp is experienced at the point of full satisfaction. 
    • Hunger is absent. This is a place many will have to start. If you find it difficult to ascertain your full signal, try instead to tune into the point where you are no longer hungry. This may not take you to your complete full level, but you can always eat later if you find your hunger shortly returning. This will help you begin to gauge what your fullness feels like. It can be less intimidating for some than first trying to clue into feeling full. 
    • You subconsciously push away your plate. 
    • A thought runs through your head, "This is the last bite". This is a clear marker for many. Pay attention the next time you are eating. Notice if there comes a point in your meal where you instinctively know that the bite of food you are about to put in your mouth should be your last. This is a very common sign. The trick is, you have to be consciously aware to catch it. When you reach the, 'last bite threshold', put your eating utensils down and push your plate away from you as a clear indication to yourself that it is time to stop. Preserve the pleasure of your meal by ceasing to eat when your body is in this relaxed, pleasantly satisfied state. 
    • You begin to eat the food before you less and less; playing with it more by moving the food around on your plate with your eating utensils. 
    • There is a warm, satisfied feeling in the stomach.
This is a principle that takes practice, just as Honor Your Hunger does. That's another one I am working on ;)

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Thankful Thursday [2]

As Running On Healthy turns 2 on a 'Thankful Thursday' I find it fitting to write a post about being thankful for you all.

This blog has been a huge part of my success. Having an avenue to express myself, my truest self, the raw and dirty part of weight loss. The struggle. The fall backs. The successes. The triumph. I have always, always, shared everything here. Whether it be a slip up, a 10lb gain, an awesome long run, a post about my fitness, a rant about my struggles, all of it. A record of my journey.

Your readership (whether you comment, or remain silent), has been so supportive and honest this entire time. I love reading every comment, hearing your feedback on what I am doing, and learning about what you are doing. It helps me know that I am not alone, and that maybe, just maybe, my story is helping other people to live a healthier life.

Whether you have weight to lose, or if you are at your goal weight, you all help to keep me accountable, each and every day. Thank you so much for the last two years. Here's to many, many more.

Running on Healthy Turns 2!


Check back later for a Thankful Thursday post!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

What I Ate Wednesday [6]

Today was healthy and very "on track." The scale however, is not. I weighed 131lb this morning. This is an accumulation of eating out too much, and grazing. I have made a refreshed commitment to myself to start eating the way I used to. I wasn't grazing in the summer/fall, and since Christmas this pesky habit has stepped in to my life again. I could graze all day, but I shouldn't. 3 Square meals, and 2-3 snacks is what I feel best eating and I want to get back to this.
Breakfast; 1/4 Cup Oats, 1 Sm. Banana, 1Tbsp. Cocoa, 5 Drops Stevia, 1Tbsp Flax, 1tsp Chia, 2Tbsp Chocolate PB2, Healthy Homemade Granola on Top (My favorite breakfast of all time!), and a cup of Coffee with 1/2Tbsp Soy Cream
Lunch; Raw Veg, 1/2 Apple, Homemade Egg English Muffin Sandwich with Spicy Tzatziki, Cucumber and Tofurky
Snack; Homemade Peanut Butter Banana Scone & Small Coffee with 1/2 Cream
Supper; Quinoa, Stir Fried Veggies, Alfredo Sauce, and Avocado
Dessert; 2 Squares Chocolate & PC Blue Menu Honey Greek Yogurt Bar
Snack Following Gym; (not pictured) 1/2 Slice Banana Loaf and 1 Peak Frean Banana Chocolate Cookie

Total Calories: 1662
Calories Burned through Exercise: 560
Net: 1102

Inches (07-03-2012)
  • Waist; 28 (+1)
  • Hips; 37 (+0.5)
  • Chest; 36 (+0.5)
  • Thigh; 22.5 (+0.5)
  • Arm; 11.75 (+0.25)
That is classic weight gain. I am not "okay" with it, but I am also not distraught over it. What good would that do? I know my problems, I have made a conscious effort to change them starting today. I am not perfect, I am so far from it. I am learning and growing and trying to accept my body. Said it before, and I shall say it again, consistency and commitment. Here we go :)

Sunday, March 4, 2012

Challenge the Food Police

4. Challenge the Food Police Scream a loud "NO" to thoughts in your head that declare you're "good" for eating under 1000 calories or "bad" because you ate a piece of chocolate cake. The Food Police monitor the unreasonable rules that dieting has created. The police station is housed deep in your psyche, and its loud speaker shouts negative barbs, hopeless phrases, and guilt-provoking indictments. Chasing the Food Police away is a critical step in returning to Intuitive Eating.
It's kind of ironic that this is the next intuitive eating principle to focus on, as I have subconsciously been doing this for the last 2 or so weeks. I am still counting my calories, but it is more or a less a tracking mechanism, a memory thing, as opposed to a numbers game. I go over my allotted calories pretty much every day. Sometimes it is by 100, sometimes by quite a bit more. The most I eat in a day is like 2200, but those are usually the days when I work out pretty hard. I average about 1800-2000 calories a day, a far cry from the 1200 I was living on in the summer.

I had a lot of unreasonable rules in the summer. No eating after 8pm. Carbs at only one meal a day. Every meal has to be under 300 calories. Yadda Yadda. I restricted, restricted, restricted. The end result? Boring food. Boring life. I hardly cooked anything exciting. I never baked with love. I wasn't "allowed" to do that. I needed to be a size 2. Being a size 2 meant unreasonable things. I managed to keep it up for a few months. But it just became to much. I loosened the reigns, then instantly felt bad for doing so. But now, I don't feel bad.

If I want a taste of something that tasted delicious but isn't good for me, I will have it, savor it, and end it at that. That is how life should be lived.

As with any lifestyle modification, sending away the negative talk takes attentiveness and time. It is a work in progress, and will continue to be for sometime. You can't wipe 19 years of unhealthiness away in 2 years. Yes, you can make strides, but they can easily be broken without consistency.

In other news... Just finished my 14km run! Following a day shift nonetheless. Been up since 5:30am. BOOM. Not going to lie, I had zero motivation to do it, and even after finishing, I wish I would have been relaxing instead of running, but I am proud of myself for my level of dedication. We won't discuss time because I ended up walking quite a bit, but the km's were covered, and thats what matters most!

I treated myself to Red Robin following. I had never been, but their garden burger intrigued me, so I figured it was perfect to go following a long run since their food is quite unhealthy. Burger definitely didn't live up to my hopes. Fries were okay.... I had a 1/2 order of sweet potatoes, 1/2 order of classic fries. The classic fries were too greasy, but they sweet potato fries were pretty good. I probably wont ever go back there by my own deciding... it just wasn't that great. To be honest, I like Harvey's veggie burger and frings a hell of a lot more than I liked Red Robin. Live and Learn and Eat :)

Friday, March 2, 2012

Thankful Thursday

In an effort to be a better blog host despite a busy school schedule, I am instituting a new weekly posting series called Thankful Thursday! I try to be a glass half full thinker. I am always trying to look at the bright side of things and pick out the good in the world. Obviously I am not immune to negative talk, including negative self talk, but I am trying to get away from this. Every Thursday I will write about one thing I am thankful for! Who says you only should give thanks on Thanksgiving anyways? :) So without further adieu, here is my first Thankful Thursday, One Day Late!
I have spent a lot of this winter worrying. And I think that I shed a lot of this worry on the blog. It was my first winter of "goal weight" and I was so so so scared that I was going to fall out of healthy habits, gain weight, and return to the size and way I was before.

This fear was legitimate. At the same time, this fear was irrational. I started running in February of 2011, over a year ago now. That is when I really focused on changing my life. Everything leading up to that month was important (becoming a vegetarian, giving up fast food, ext...), but I really believe exercise was the last mountain for me to climb to build a healthy and long lasting lifestyle. It was the missing link to a sustainable future.

During the summer, I was active. Like a lot. Even with sciatica, I was walking 2 hours a day, exercising 5-6 times a week (1-1.5hr each time), and eating healthy. At the time, I was surprised I kept losing weight. But reflecting now, I am not. I was easily surpassing my caloric intake with my exercise calories. So yeah, getting to 121ish was maintainable and achievable. I probably most likely wasn't eating enough. I probably definitely wasn't strength training enough. I assume know that I lost muscle mass. Yeah, I got down to a size 2. Cool beans. I was tiny.

Then life hit (read: school, and cold weather). My walks became shorter, my eating changed, and my focus shifted from maintaining my weight, to living a healthy, balanced life. I started strength training more, and incorporating other types of fitness (like swimming and biking and weight lifting) into my routine. I indulged in more sweets. I cooked with life and with exuberance. I ate well. I moved my body as much as possible. I lived am living.

In short. Yes. I gained weight. Not all of it has been muscle either. But. That's. Oh. Kay. I am still muchos healthier than a lot of the people I know. I still work out 5-6 times a week. I have let myself let go of the numbers associated with being skinny, and have embraced health and embraced life. I haven't weighed myself in 2+ weeks, but I know that I haven't changed much. I weight between 128-130. I am a size 4. I am healthy. I am happy.

How does this translate into being thankful? I am thankful for my healthy habits, that have remained and persevered even when I was scared, obsessed, and stressed.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

What I Ate - Comparison

Here is a comparison of yesterday with a "better" day. I use the term better loosely because I had a failed attempt at baking cookies and ended up.... *cough* eating quite a bit of the batter *cough*.
Breakfast: Weight Watchers whole wheat bun with PB & sliced Banana topped with a bit of homemade low sugar granola
Post Gym: Soy Iced Latte with Caramel Drizzle and 2 Peak Frean Banana Chocolate Cookies
Lunch: Salad Monster with left over Beans, corn, salsa, tomatoes, peppers, onion, carrots, and nutritional yeast. TASTY. Cake Truffle found in freezer, must have fallen off the pan when I made them last week? Freezer burnt :(
Between Lunch & Supper: See that picture of those 2 delicious cookies? Mine were delicious, but gross looking. Not sure what happened but I didn't snap a picture of them.
Supper: Still feeling full, another salad monster topped with corn and beans, raisins, pumpkin seeds, homemade candied pecans ( !!! toasted in a frying pan with a bit of oil and the drizzled with honey and cinnamon! HOLY YUM), 1/2 cara cara orange, and a wee bit of roasted yam. Salad topped with sprinkled cinnamon and a drizzle of honey - this. was. awesome. I will definitely make again!

I am back in Edmonton now for a week. 5 Day Shifts and 1 Evening Shift! I lost track of how many shifts I have left. That's a good thing right?! I am about a week away from Mid-Term.... Am I a real nurse yet? :)