healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Monday, December 31, 2012

2013; The Year of Acceptance


ac·cep·tance /akˈseptəns/

noun.

1. The act or process of accepting.
2. The state of being accepted or acceptable.
3. Favorable reception; approval.
4. Belief in something; agreement.

So, Acceptance. I think it is something we all strive for. I have been blogging and focusing on my weight for almost 3 years now. That is over 1000 days. You'd think I had found Acceptance of myself by now, right? Think again.

I wish I could say that I have found it. At times, specifically when I was at my lowest weight, I thought I had. But the excessive calorie counting and mathematics of it tired me out, and I ended up gaining back some weight. Well with weight comes increased anxiety and decreased self esteem.

Throughout 2012 I focused on transitioning away from calorie counting. I feel like I have finally accomplished that, and feel okay with it, so now I want to focus on accepting myself and the body that goes along with it.

Let me clarify. I am by no means overweight or unhealthy. Quite the contrary. I am stronger and faster than ever. I am active, I eat well, mostly whole foods. I am just not there mentally.

How will I work on acceptance?
  1. Monthly updates and reflection on how I am feeling about myself.
  2. Focusing on who I am and what make me, Me.
  3. Only weighing or measuring myself if I can assure it will not cause me anxiety or disappointment.
  4. Focusing on the great things my body does, such as getting me through my marathon training.
  5. Dressing in clothes that make me feel good and proud of my curves, while not looking at the number that is associated with the size.
What is your 2013 word? How have you found acceptance of your body?

Wishing you a safe and happy New Year!

Friday, December 28, 2012

2012 in Review

So who can believe it is already going to be 2013 in a matter of days? Didn't see that one coming. Thank god we made it through 2012.
The HIGHlights
  1. I graduated Nursing School and then got a job that I LOVE.
  2. I bought a house.
  3. Grew my FIRST garden!
  4. I stopped counting Calories.
  5. I got engaged.
  6. I We got a New Puppy, Hank.
  7. I ran lots of Races, including 2 half marathons, a 10km, 2 5km's, an 8 km, and a Spartan Race.
  8. I fell in love with Crossfit.
  9. Travelled to Vegas with my love.
The lowLIGHTS
  1. Disordered Thinking remains a part of my life.
  2. Family Struggles - I try to keep this private and off the blog ;)
  3. Hypothalamic Amennorhea and Low WBC Count.
  4. 2 Words: Wisdom Teeth.
  5. Got kicked off my Soccer Team.
  6. Weight Re-gain.
And those are just the things I blogged about!

I really transitioned this year. I can now add Fiance, Registered Nurse, and Home Owner to my ever expanding list of Labels.

I am ending off 2012 happier and more sure of myself than I started 2012. Coming up next? My 2013 Word!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Monday Musings [2]

1. Merry Crossfitmas
5 Rounds For Time

  • 20 Double Unders
  • 10 Deadlifts at 70%ish of 1RM (My 1RM is 125#, so I did 85#)
  • 5 Hand Release Push Ups
CASHOUT: 50 Sit Ups
2. My house has been hijacked. 6 People, 4 Dogs, and 2 Cats is way too much for my size house.
3. I was totally stressed about December 21st, 2012. Amie = Ball of Nerves, all day long. I even forced myself to stay up until Midnight just to know that I "lived another day". Thank goodness it is over.
4.  I nearly died laughing at this. Please go read it now.
5. 

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Conflicted

So. Close. To. Christmas.

I hate to sound like the Ebenezer Scrooge, but is anyone else wanting this season to be over? I am so ready just to get back to normal life. Bah Humbug.

Yesterday, I watched a pretty sweet documentary. It was called Vegucated. About 3 people who go from eating the standard American Diet to Vegan for 6 weeks. I really liked the movie. It highlighted on the discrepancies of companies who claim to be Organic, Free-Range, ext.. and how they are lacking standards with the care of their animals. It got me thinking about animal abuse, animal rights, and all those tree-hugger issues that I am so on the fence about. I love animals, Obvi, I have 5 pets of my own. 6 Counting Matthias. Haha.

When I became a Vegetarian over 2 years (!! Woah) ago, well, no one thought it would stick, and it totally has. I didn't make the decision at that time based on the rights of animals. It was based on health and weight loss. Since that time I have spent lots of time researching plant based, whole food diets, the health benefits of being a vegetarian and a vegan and so on. I spent almost 3 months as a almost-vegan during the summer of 2011 after watching Forks Over Knives. I felt pretty darn good. There were some flaws in my eating (excessive restricting, structured eating times, so it basically ran my life), but eating the types of foods I ate made me feel light, whole, and energized.

At this point in my life, I continue to eat Eggs, Cheese (in moderation), Yogurt, and Half and Half (sometimes in lieu of Soy), and Milk Chocolate (although I most definitely prefer dark). I own a stick of butter, but I use it only for baking, which I try to pawn off on co-workers. I like laughing cow cheese, but really, that is so so processed that I don't even know if you can call it cheese.

I know that I can never be a strict Vegan. That is too extreme and to me, life isn't about being extreme. But I feel like I could be doing more, like I could be doing "Better". Maybe it is because I publicly announced that I wanted to transition to a Vegan Diet as a part of my Transitional Year and that year is nearly up? Who knows.

What are your thoughts on being a Vegetarian, Vegan, and everything in between?

Monday, December 17, 2012

Monday Musings [1]

You see a lot of different feature days on different blogs, like Thankful Thursday (which I have participated in, in the past), Friday Favorites, Thursday Things, Friend Making Monday, Tuesday Things, you get the idea.

Now I want to continue to focus my thoughts and the overall content of my blog on healthy living, running, and crossfitting, but I also think it would be nice to have a weekly post that is a random collection of my thoughts throughout the week. So, welcome friends, to Monday Musings.
  1. Being sick blows. I hate hate hate not working out regularly even though I know that I can't if I want to get better. Matthias thinks the cold has been harder on me than him because he took Cold FX. Pssshhh. I haven't been to crossfit in almost a week, haven't run in over a week, and barely made it through 45min on the Stepper yesterday. Le sigh.
  2. Need a new therapeutic approach to increasing a patients self confidence? See below: Works every time :) 
  3. Who else loves videos of funny cats? That alone should be prescribed as medicine for the common cold. Eeer... unless you want to end up wheezing and gasping for air because you are laughing so hard. This video in particular kills me.
  4. I have in-laws coming on Saturday and have done no prep on the food I am going to cook, the cleaning of the house, or anything of that sort. Want to help?
  5. These Oreos are now on the "No Buy List"  Why on the No Buy List you ask? Because I bought a box on Saturday, and it is already GONE. Ooops.

Is it January Yet?


BOOM.

Please excuse the lack of communication this last week. I am just on the up-swing of an awful cold/cough. Your regular broadcasting should resume shortly ;)

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

The Great Food Blogger Cookie Swap!

So this is my first year participating in the Great Food Blogger Cookie Swap and I couldn't be more excited to press publish on this post!

I was matched with Megan, Lisa, and Destini.

So, now the big question. What type of cookies did I want to bake and send?

Well, I knew I wanted to do something Unique, and Christmas-y. I decided on Pecan Pie Cookies with a twist. I used Eggnog in place of the Whipping Cream! They turned out divine.
Eggnog Pecan Pie Cookies
Yield; 36 Cookies
Recipe Based on Land'o'Lakes

Ingredients
Cookie
  • 1 cup firmly packed brown sugar 
  • 3/4 cup butter, softened 
  • 1 large egg
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla 
  • 2 cups all-purpose flour 
  • 1 teaspoon baking powder
Filling
  • 1 cup chopped pecans 
  • 1/2 cup firmly packed brown sugar 
  • 1/4 cup eggnog 
  • 1 teaspoon vanilla
Directions
Heat oven to 350°F. Combine all cookie ingredients except flour and baking powder in large bowl. Beat at medium speed until creamy. Reduce speed to low; add flour and baking powder. Beat until well mixed.

Shape dough into 1 1/4-inch balls. Place 2 inches apart onto ungreased cookie sheets. Make indentation in each cookie with thumb; rotate thumb to hollow out slightly.

Combine all filling ingredients in small bowl; fill each cookie with 1 rounded teaspoon filling. Bake for 8 to 12 minutes or until lightly browned. Cool 1 minute; remove from cookie sheets.


The cookies I received in the mail:
  • Reindeer Poop Chocolate Truffles from Kristy
  • Cardamom Coffee Double Chocolate Cookies from Erin
  • Candy Cane, Ginger, and Fruitcake Sugar Cookies from Laura 
Tis' been a tasty year!

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Favorite Things Christmas Swap {2012}

I participated in the Favorite Things Christmas Swap this year and had a blast! I was paired with Helene over at Healthy Frenchie. It has been awesome reading her blog and getting to know her a little better. I was super excited to receive my box from her in the mail.

Inside my Christmas Package:
  • Speculoos Cookies (yes. the same type that is featured in TJ's Cookie Butter. I may or may not be researching recipes so I can make it myself at home)
  • Christmas Ornaments
  • Candles & Candle Holders that smelled SO good
  • Advent Calender (YUM)
  • Gift Card Box (So Cute. Can't wait to use it and give it to someone else!)

This is something I can't wait to participate in again next year! Thank you Leigh and Lindsay for hosting!

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Will Run for Chocolate and Medals! {Race Recap}

On December 1st I participated in the New-to-Red-Deer 5km Salvation Army Santa Shuffle. I kind of thought of this race as my unofficial start to Marathon training because for the month of December I have added scheduled Runs (3-4/week) to increase my base mileage.

The main reason I signed up for this event? Every participate got a medal. Love Medals! I add them to my Race Collage so I will pretty much do any run I can that has a medal involved and why I get so made when I do a run there isn't one.
I ran the race with my friend Annette from work! It made the time fly by.

Weather was definitly chilly. -14 but with the Wind Chill it felt like -21 outside with snow.
 I tested out my new Running Shoes and Winter Running Gear and stayed warm :) I used the Attached Balaclava on the hood for the first few minutes but when I was warm enough I took it off. Notice the dark spot on the Left Shoe? Well... I was wearing in the shoes (does anyone else do this?) around the house and decided to bake cookies. I melted my butter in the Microwave and when I pulled it out, it splashed on my Brand. New. Kicks. :\ Never doing that again.
A lovely surprise? Free Lindt Advent Calendars at the end! YUM.

We finished in just over 36 minutes, but considering the congestion at the start of the race I think we would have finished at around the 32 minute mark.

Fun times to be had. Let the marathon training begin.

Saturday, December 1, 2012

December Goals

Well I really dropped the ball on my November Goals. Oops!
  1. Walk the dogs 3x per week. Going to be more challenging with the chillier weather but I will make it a commitment! - Fail. They got roughly 1 walk in per week. Tuck has a sore hip, so I don't want to over exercise him. I probably should be getting the other ones out to walk though.
  2. Continue focusing on #125. This week has been going good so far. I have finally been consistently tracking my food. Even though I have gone over my calorie count for each day (not by much) it has been good to see and realize what exactly I have been eating. Portion control people! - I talked about this one here. I am not focusing on a number any longer. I am pretty sure I gained weight this month, but that is Okay because I am eating (mostly) healthy food.
  3. Run Twice a Week. Yup! I am upping it. With me no longer doing a weekly spin class (Those bastards upped the price), I will be exchanging that workout for another run :) - Another big ol' fail. I got 1x run in a week. This will change in December because I have now scheduled runs in to my weeks to get my weekly mileage up before marathon training.
  4. Practice Yoga 1x per week. I think this will be much more reasonable. - I failed to practice yoga at ALL this month! I got caught up in the Crossfit Craze ;)
  5. Meal Plan. I have had troubles with my meal planning since starting straight Evening's and this month I would like to start getting back in to the habit of it. Another fail. No meal planning on this lady's fridge.
So about that... hahaha. Lets see if December can be a little more on track shall we?

December Goals
  1. Track All Food - Self Explanatory. I need to stay in check during the Holidays.
  2. Walk Hank & Rosie x3/week and Tuck x1/week - NEED to get this as a regular habit.
  3. Take time for me - Don't want to get too caught up in the hustle and bustle around me. I want to be able to just relax a bit. Some wine, a good book, maybe a bubble bath.
  4. Eat out less - I had a few functions in November that required me to go out of town and eat at restaurants. I don't like this because often Restaurant meals are so unhealthy. Although I can't place a limit on it, I want to be more conscious of eating out and what I chose if I do eat at a restaurant.
An Update; So I talked about not having my period for 10 months, having a Low WBC count and the Progesterone Challenge test that I was taking. Well, it was successful. After 10 months of NOT having a period I had a hormone induced one this month! I have it scheduled in my book when my next period should be! I hope it comes naturally in December.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

Random Musings

  1. Check out this sweet Food Journal. I bought it on Etsy and it just came in the mail today. I plan on tracking food and exercise, minus the calories and numbers.
  2. Hank is a star. He is super cute and fitting right in. Him and Rosie are very playful, and Boss Tucker is just starting to get used to him. We are working on House Training and Stairs!
  3. I had my first session with my Personal Trainer today and it was good! I am going to have a sore lower half tomorrow ;)
  4. I bought some Christmas Decorations from Michaels, they had some stellar sales last week! I also put up my Christmas Tree. Lovely, no?
  5. How fast can one gain muscle weight/mass? I know that with muscle comes water, and I know I shouldn't look at the number but when I stepped on the scale on Sunday I was .... flabbergasted .... because of the number I saw. Matthias says I should focus on the mirror.
  6. My pants may or may not be tighter and I may or may not need to go up a size. How do I feel about this? On the fence.. I mean, I know I feel stronger, and I got some curvalicious curves going on, but frig, when will I just level out?
  7. I love Crossfit. It makes me feel fit, strong, and comfortable in my own skin. When I do crossfit, I think less about my size, and more about how much I rock. Does that sound bad? Hahah
  8. Is it January Yet? I really want to start training for my full marathon.
  9. Repeat after me:  

Friday, November 23, 2012

Running Gear


Why is Quality Running Gear so freaking expensive? I guess because it will last a long time. I headed to the Running Room this past weekend to help Matthias pick out my Christmas Present (Asics G-2000).

Whilst browsing, I happened to try on the RRX Jacket, which I instantly loved. Wicking, Wind Protection, Breathable, Lots of Pockets, Removable Hood and Balaclava? Definitely worth the hefty price tag.

So I figured it would be a good idea to try on the matching, lined, wicking, RRX Running Leggings. Well it was a good idea. But not such a good idea for my Bank Account Credit Card. They can be my Christmas Present to myself.... right? I have been in this sport for almost 2 years now and this is the first time I have bought expensive Running Clothes, so with a full marathon in my future and lots of chilly, -20 outdoor long runs in the thick of Winter, I figured I needed some good stuff ;)
Do you have expensive Running Gear?

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

ESSPRESSO MACHINE LOVE

I have owned my Starbucks Barista Espresso Machine since 2007. It rocks, but I find myself forgetting about it and putting it away in the closet. Well Welcome Back Miss Barista! I have missed you.
Holiday Nog from Costo? Love.
Holiday Nog Misto (1/2 coffee, 1/2 cup nog) and half the fat and calories than Starbucks, not to mention FREE? LOOOOVE.

Oh. By the way. Matthias and I adopted a 3rd dog. Meet Hank. He is a 3 month old Malamute/Shepard Cross from the SPCA. He was def. a spur of the moment decision, but he is our "Christmas Present" to each other. We are now officially Crazy Dog People.
The Kids, Tucker, Rosie, Hank
Hank the Tank

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Revised Marathon Training Plan

Hi Friends! I have spent some time this morning revising my Woody's Marathon Training Plan to include some Crossfit. My Plan is based primarily on a Crossfit/Running Balance, with plenty of opportunities to rest, recover, and enjoy the process. I am so so so excited!
You probably noticed a lack of Yoga in the above training plan... I noticed it too. On my Rest days, I plan on incorporating either Yoga at home, or Yoga at the Breathing Room, but only the relaxation kind, not the Power Flow kind. Later on, as the Mileage on Sunday's increase, I will take out the Crossfit classes on Monday and do some light Cross Training or Yoga on those days as well.

I also changed my Long Run day from Friday to Sunday 

This is just a guideline. If I want an extra rest day I will take an extra rest day. I will be doing a walk-run method on my long runs. I don't want this to become stressful or time-focused. This is my FIRST MARATHON for goodness sakes and I want to enjoy it all and soak it all up :)

I also have some Personal Training purchased, so I am sure some of the shorter runs during the first 5ish weeks of training will turn into PT days.

Any feedback on the plan? Did you ever train for a race while incorporating Crossfit?

Friday, November 16, 2012

Let's Take A Moment...

Okay friends.

Lets take a moment to talk about how AWESOME Crossfit is.

As I briefly mentioned here, I recently went to a Crossfit Class at Pure Fitness and joined a Crossfit 101 Class to learn the basics.

Swoon.
I have fallen in love.

I am not very strong, but man oh man, do I ever feel strong when I leave the class. So far we have reviewed the basics, Air Squats, Front Squats, Deadlifts, Pushups, Skipping, Box Jumps, Thrusters, and Cleans.

Well, I reached a goal that I had listed on my sidebar. I joined the Crossfit Gym! They offer Bike, Bootcamp, and Crossfit throughout the week, and I can go to unlimited classes for $80. SCORE. I am actually considering looking in to getting out of my other contract at Only Womens Fitness because I have a treadmill at home, and I don't like all of Spin Class teachers that they have. We shall see.

I do think Crossfit is the answer. It focuses on functional movements, a mixture between cardio and strength. It is intense, guided by a professional, and the classes are about an hour long. Not to mention, the people at Pure are SO welcoming and nice :)

In the mean time, I am planning on taking some before pictures to compare my guns now and later. I also need to revise my Marathon Training Plan to include Crossfit!

ALSO, I AM GOING TO TWILIGHT TONIGHT. WEEEOOOO.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

Finding my "Normal"

I have talked about numbers in the past here and here and here. Throughout my weight loss and maintenance journey's I have sought to find my "Normal". Essentially; I want to find a number that I can maintain, without second thought, without planning my every food-move.

I got down to 120lb and I was terrified about how I was going to maintain it.

So I went up to 124-127 and I still meticulously counted calories, restricted certain foods, and exercised too much.

Then I got up to 130lb. I didn't think too much about it, but I felt like a failure for not being able to stay at 120lb. So I still semi-counted what I was eating, with the goal to eventually get back down.

Right now I am hovering between 132-135lb.

I am writing down my foods in a journal, no calories attached, and no planning ahead. I simply eat, and then track after. I semi-plan my suppers (because I work evenings and am out of the house), but I don't plan by the week, just for the day.

What is my normal? Am I there now? Will I continue to gain and get to 140? How often should I weigh myself? Should I exercise more/less? So. Many. Questions.

It is challenging to not know. To think I will have the same body for 50 years is unreasonable, I get that. But for right now.. how much more "change" will I need to go through before I find something that I can keep up without it controlling my life?

I feel like I am close... but I don't know if I am there yet.

Any suggestions?

Sunday, November 11, 2012

My Marathon Plan

So this is what I have created so far. The Hill, Tempo, and Interval workouts are based off of the No Meat Athlete Roadmap I mentioned in an earlier post. Thank you for all of the suggestions and feedback! I will contact the Running Room and see if they have different times for their clinic runs. If not I will go at it on my own. I plan on running only 3 days a week, I know if I run any more than that I will get burnt out. I also know that listening to my body will be extremely important. I plan on working with a trainer to focus on the proper strength training for marathon running (I start on the 23rd!). If I want an extra day off I will take a day off, if I want to switch out a run for a class, I will. I hope to keep going to Crossfit, Spin, and Yoga!

Friday, November 9, 2012

Picking a Training Guide

I was given the "Okay" from my Doctor on Thursday to train for the 2013 Woody's Marathon! Yes! So now, I am faced with a challenge. What training plan do I follow? There are tons and tons of training plans our there, available on the internet, in running stores, you get the gist. So which one is the one for me? Here are the top 3 contenders:
  1. No Meat Athelete - This is the plan I am leaning towards as I want to focus on being healthy and as meat-free as possible while ensuring I am getting adequate protein. It is an online program (PDF download, with audio, checklists, and a comprehensive guide). Only $37.
  2. Running Room - This was the first program I looked at as I would like to have the commradery of running with others. The problem? I work Tuesday (education day) and Wednesday (run day) evenings... I could still go to the Sunday morning runs, for free, regardless of what plan I pick. I could do the online running plan, which costs $50.
  3. Hal Higdon - This plan is free and available online here. I used Hal Higdon to train for my first 10km run and killed it. It was an easy to follow plan and very effective. Hal Higdon is well known for his training plans.  
Runners, what programs have you used? Any feedback or suggestions on the programs I have listed above? I would love to hear it!

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Recipe: Vegan Streusel Carrot Cake Muffins

Usually when I bake, the results are pretty good. I have vastly improved on my skills. This is thanks to lots of errors, lots of practice, and lots of Bake with Anna Olson. Anyone else PVR that show? I have learned SO much from her!

So anyways, when I bake, I like to share the product with everyone, ie. I take it to work, make Matthias take it to work, or make something for a special event. But sometimes... the results are so delicious that I don't want to share. This happens with most of my scone recipes, they end up in the freezer so that I don't eat them all in one day Matthias and I can share them and make them last.

Well. Let me just say, these muffins are one of those un-shareable recipes. You have been warned. Now please, go make these!

Vegan Streusel Carrot Cake Muffins
Recipe adapted from Oh She Glows
Yield: 10 Muffins

Ingredients:
Muffin - Dry
  • 1 & 3/4 cup flour (I used Dark Rye)
  • 1/4 cup sugar
  • 1 tbsp ground flax seed
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • 1 tsp baking sod
  • 1 tsp cinnamon
  • 1/2 tsp pumpkin pie spice
  • 1/2 tsp salt
Muffin - Wet/Mix-ins
  • 1/4 cup pure maple syrup
  • 1/2 cup unsweetened applesauc
  • 1/2 cup almond milk mixed with 1 tbsp apple cider vinegar
  • 1/4 cup water
  • 1 tsp almond extract
  • 1.5 cups grated carrots (about 3 small-medium carrots)
  • 1/2 cup raisins, soaked in water and drained
  • 1/3 cup chopped & toasted almonds
  • 1/3 cup toasted unsweetened shredded coconut  
Streusel
  • 1/4 cup flour
  • 1/4 cup nuts/granola (I used this)
  • 2 tbsp white sugar
  • 2 tbsp brown sugar
  • sprinkle of cinnamon
  • dash of salt
  • 3 tbsp cold butter
Directions:
1. Toast the almonds and coconut (optional) on a baking sheet for about 6 minutes at 300F. Remove and set aside. Preheat oven to 400F and spray a muffin tin with cooking spray.

2. Sift all dry ingredients together in a large bowl. In a smaller bowl, mix together the wet ingredients (maple syrup, applesauce, almond milk/apple cider vinegar, water, almond extract). Add the wet to the dry and mix until just incorporated

3. Fold in the carrots, raisins, almonds, and coconut. Scoop batter into the muffin liners, filling batter to the top.

4. In a small bowl, mix together dry ingredients of streusel, add in margerine or butter and combine until it resembles a course corn-meal type mixture. Evenly distribute over the muffins and press in to batter slightly.

5. Bake for about 16 minutes at 400F until a toothpick comes out clean. Allow to cool for about 10 minutes.

6. Run a toothpick around the muffins to help get them out of the tin.

7. Freeze so that you don't eat them all in one sitting. Enjoy!

Sunday, November 4, 2012

Disordered Thinking

Thank you so much for the thoughtful comments on my last post. I especially enjoyed reading about Hypothalamic Amenorrhea over at My Food'n'Fitness Diaries. This is most likely what is going on with my body and I plan to discuss it my with Doc on Tuesday.

I realize that it takes a lot to overcome disordered thinking regarding food, the self, and exercise. I don't think one with a history of this type of thinking will be without slip ups when going forward.

Let me just say that placing a numerical value on my goals was not healthy and a step in the wrong direction. Why is 125lb or a Size 2 the numbers my disordered brain is focused on? The healthy brained Amie screams "NO! Accept your body, eat healthy whole foods, don't count calories." And I tend to lean towards that. Whether it be continued "Diet Burnout" or a greater appreciation for nutrition, who knows, but I know in my heart that I don't want to count calories for the rest of my life. I set it as one of my goals for 2012. "Transition - Not Counting Calories", I don't want this to be a life long numbers game. This is my life, not a mathematical equation.

Now, I do think that keeping a food journal is an important aspect of healthy living, at least in my case. With my love of chocolate, I can easily go overboard. Once in a while, that isn't a bad thing. But with so much going on in my life, 1 halloween sized bar can turn in to 6 without me even realizing it. That isn't healthy in anyone's books. Tracking what I eat, without calories attached, will help me to ensure I am focusing on consuming the healthy type of foods, the unprocessed stuff, and stay away from the junk.

Do I want to run a marathon? Absolotuley. That wasn't a spur of the moment decision. I have wanted to run a full marathon since I caught the running bug. Do I want to run a marathon to lose weight? No. That never crossed my mind. So I know that is a goal that I want to keep. Regardless of weight and size. I DO realize the importance of properly fueling the body when running lots and lots of miles. I have considered reintroducing seafood (mainly shrimp and salmon) when I begin marathon training. I plan to discuss marathon nutrition with my Doc as well on Tuesday and if I get the go-ahead from him I will be doing lots of research on this.

Do I want to do crossfit? Yes. I took a class yesterday and today I am SO SO SO sore. It was awesome. I got in a great sweat and felt like I really accomplished something. In fact, I signed up for a "Crossfit 101" to learn the basics starting tomorrow for 2 weeks :) I will do an update at the end about how that went for me. Do I want to do crossfit to lose weight? No I want to do crossfit to increase my strength, try something new, meet new people, and become more well rounded with my fitness.

This was the WOD Yesterday:
Partner WOD, only one can do work at a time
- 10 HSPU
- 20 Pull ups
- 30 Box Jumps
- 40 Sit-ups
- 50 ?? (I don't remember)
- 60 Lateral jumps
- 70 Flutter kicks
- 80 Air squats
- 90 Double-unders
- 100 Mountain climber
Then do them all going from the mountain climbers down to the Hand Stand Pushups.
Kicked. My. Ass.

I can see the "Weight Loss" Food plan in my mind. And it honestly makes me cringe. It is so far removed from focusing on health, whole foods, and a balance of carbs, fat, and protein. That is NOT what I want.

So lets take the number out of it. Lets re-focus on whole foods, tracking food but not calories, and moving my body because I like to, not because I have to.

Friday, November 2, 2012

Exercise Woes

I really do love working out. But I feel like over the past few months I have lost my Mojo. You see, I haven't had a period since February. Yes, February. That is nearly 10 months without having my lady friend join me each month. At first, I was totally freaked out that I was pregnant. I took about 5 pee tests and finally a blood test to confirm the obvious fact, that I wasn't pregnant. Phew. So why no period?

I went off the birth control pill at that time, and since then, my natural cycle has not returned. I had taken the pill for 5 years, gone off for a year, and then went back on for a year. In the last year I was on the pill I lost the majority of my weight. Then, when I decided to go off the pill, my period decided not to resume its schedule and has been M.I.A. since.

So I go to the doctor, he does blood work and finds that I have a low White Blood Cell count, and that I have had one for over a year. It is worth noting that I have tons of energy, a good immune system (I rarely get sick), I am not flogged with stress, I get adequate sleep, and I eat fairly healthy. I do exercise moderately, and the doc recommends I cut back a bit. I comply. He sends me for a pelvic ultrasound, which showed 2 ovaries with eggs in them.

So he sends me to a hematologist. I convince myself that I am dying, either from leukemia or HIV (acquired through some freak accident). The hematologist sends me for a whole shwack of blood work and an abdominal ultrasound, and I get tested for STI's. Everything comes back negative, the rest of my blood work is unremarkable, I have no STI's, and my inner parts are all normal sized. Phew. So now what?

I cut out my 3rd half marathon for 2012 summer. I didn't get to do my duathlon. I haven't tried cross fit. I significantly reduced my running. I gained a bit of weight.

No period. A clean bill of health from the hematologist (she plans on following up with me yearly). What now? Well I have a doctors appointment for next week so that I can hopefully start on hormone therapy to try and jump start my period.

I feel lost with my current exercise regimen, like a part of my identity is gone. I don't know how to create a strength training program that I love. I don't have any races to train for. I haven't tried cross fit yet. I feel like I have nothing to work towards, not to mention the apprehension I feel regarding pushing myself too far and screwing up my inner parts even more.
I just signed up for 2 winter races, which is totally out of my element. The Santa Shuffle 5km Fun Run, December 1st. And the Hypothermic 1/2 Marathon, March 3rd.

I've also decided that I will run the Woody's Marathon in 2013. The full marathon. Of course I won't have any time goals, just the goal to finish, but I feel like this will give me something big to work towards. Having announced these goals just makes me excited! I am planning on doing the Running Room Marathon Clinic as motivation/accountability and to teach me just how to train and fuel for a full marathon!

I look back to my 2012 word; Transition. It couldn't be more appropriate for my year. I graduate college, bought a house, got a full time job, worried about my health, met my biological father and got engaged. Not all of the transitions I listed happened, but I still feel like a totally different person now. A more grown up person.

Have you set any 2013 goals yet?