healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Recipe: Healthy Protein Balls

  • 100g Raw Cashews
  • 45g Dates
  • 1tbsp M&M's or Chocolate Chips of your choice
  • 1 Scoop Protein Powder of your choice
  • 2tbsp Light Maple Syrup
  • 1/2tsp Vanilla Extract
  • Stevia to taste
  1. In a food processor, grind your cashews into a powder.
  2. Add in protein powder, dates, maple syrup, vanilla, and stevia and mix together well.
  3. Add in chocolate chips.
  4. Form 10-12 balls.
  5. Freeze, Eat, or Fridgerate em'.
Based on 11 balls, and Allmax Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Protein Powder
Calories: 85 Carbs: 8 Fat: 7 Protein: 4 Fiber: 1

Attempted to take the picture with my new phone - Samsung Galaxy S2. I see that I need to rotate the camera in order to get a vertical shot as it uploads horizontally!

Have a healthy weekend friends.

Just a thought:
"Fears over tomorrow and regrets over yesterday are twin thieves that rob us of the moment." - Anonymous

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Thinking Positively

I am a strong believer in the glass being half full. When I think about life in general, I think of the family I have that loves me, the friends I have who laugh with me, the education I have which is almost done, the dogs I have who unconditionally care for me (more so than me for them), and most importantly the health that I have worked for.

Some days, like everyone, I feel so down in the dumps. Like all of my successes and accomplishments will magically disappear and things won't work out for me. I get so scared that I shouldn't be this lucky.

Why do I deserve this good fortune? There are many other good people in this world with so much less than me. Sometimes it makes me feel quite guilty.

Then, like a refreshing breeze, I feel it.
And this is the thought that comes to mind:

Life is beautiful.

Life is good.

I read today, during my first day of clinical, that life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it. It really struck a bell.

Yes, people are given different straws in the straw-box of life, but it is how we chose to respond that will make, or break, our short (very short) time on earth.

So, regardless of whether or not you have achieved your weight loss goals, regardless of whether or not you ended up working out today, regardless of your situation, recognize that you are beautiful, you are good. This can be the first second of the rest of your life. And I promise, that if you put your mind to whatever it is you want out of life, you will do it, accomplish it, attract it to you.

P.S. For those who have been following my nursing - today I found out that my final practicum has been confirmed at the Women's Penitentiary, and I couldn't be more excited! Bring on the learning!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Recipe: The Healthiest Banana Bread ... Ever.

I love me some bananas. I love me some choco chips. I love me some bread.

This recipe is almost vegan (the only thing containing dairy is the chips). It is moist, dense, and deliciously good for you.

  • 1 Cup All Purpose Flour
  • 1 Cup Quick Oats (I kept mine whole, but these could easily be ground into a flour and used)
  • 2 Ripe Small/Medium Bananas
  • 2 Tbsp Ground Flax Meal (mixed with 4 Tbsp water) or other Egg Substitute
  • 1 Container Motts Unsweetened Apple Sauce
  • Dash of Salt
  • 1 Tsp Baking Powder
  • 1/2 Tsp Baking Soda
  • 1 Tsp Cinnamon
  • 2 Tbsp (30g) Hershey's Mini Chocolate Chipits (Carob chips could be used to make this completely vegan)
  • 1.5 Tsp Apple Cider Vinegar
  • 1/2 Cup Almond Milk
  • 100g (3.5 oz) So Delicious Vanilla Coconut Yogurt (optional)
  • 1 Tsp Vanilla Extract
  • Stevia to taste (I used 3 "squirts" of liquid Vanilla Stevia)
  1. Preheat oven to 365F. In a small bowl, combine Almond Milk and Apple Cider Vinegar. Set aside. Grease 2 mini loaf pans or 1 regular loaf pan with cooking spray.
  2. Combine dry ingredients (except chips).
  3. Using electric mixer, add in wet ingredients and combine until well incorporated.
  4. Stir in chips.
  5. Dough will seem fairly "wet", this is okay! Pour into pan of choice. Bake for 45min. Check using toothpick to see if it is done. Bake until toothpick comes out clean, depending on your oven: 45-60min.
  6. Let cool, Slice, and Enjoy!
Nutritional Information:
Based on 1 Large loaf cut into 12 slices, or 2 Small loaves cut into 6 slices each.
Cal: 116 Fat: 2g Carbs: 21g Protein: 3g Fiber: 3g
Like the Vanna White Display of my Mini Loaf? Yeah. I knew you would ;)
No added oil .... No added sugar ... No compromised taste!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

A Day of Eats and a ..... DUATHLON?!

Oh. Dear. God.

I just signed up for a Duathlon.

July 22nd, Canmore, AB. (Click the Image for more info!)
3.5km Trail Run. 40km Bike. 10km Run.

Pretty excited actually ... Thank goodness I have lots of time to train! I am fairly certain I have no idea what I have gotten myself in to, but hey, no pain, no train, no gain?! I Think?

Decided to post a day of Eats for you. It is something I don't normally do. Let me know what you think!

Breakfast: Pumpkin Oats (Oats, Canned Pumpkin, Banana, Chia Seeds, Ground Flax, Almonds & Dried Cranberries)
Lunch: Fried Squash, Carrots, Onion, Avacado, Orange Peppers, Mushroom & Tomato on Salad with Peas & Thank You Mmmm SauceDinner: Carrots, Asparagus, Okra, Peppers, Onions, and Garbanzos on Pasta with more MmmmSnackage: Mandarin, Motts Apple Sauce, Dark Chocolate, and a Grande Soy 1 Pump Mocha Cafe Misto with Orange Extract

Friday, October 21, 2011

Thursday, October 20, 2011

Some Random Thoughts

I went to the doctor the other day for my yearly check up. The night before, I was thinking about how I was going to have to step on the scale at the office, and of course, they are the super duper accurate scales that know exactly what you weigh. This created some stress. What if it was different than what it says when I am home, naked, and empty (before breakfast and after a morning pee). Would that shape how I would continue on with my day? Should it?

I thought about this as I got dressed that morning to a weight of 123.5lb. Should I wear "light" clothes? What would they think of my weight? Would they even notice? Why was I over thinking this to start with?

At my lowest weight, 121.5lb, I was extremely active, working out every day, long runs once a week, walking my dog for up to 2 hours each day. I didn't have to worry about school. I only worked part time. This was unrealistic for me to even think about keeping up once the weather changed and the homework possessed my life again.

It has been six weeks now of being in school. When I started I weighed 122-122.5lb. That means I have gained anywhere from a pound to a pound and a half. I have been trying to self reflect on what this means for me. I know how easily it is for people to gain weight they have lost. I know that fat cells never leave, they just shrink. I know, and fully understand, that I could easily slip back in to old patterns (and trust me, some weeks I have) and that I will lose some of the success I have achieved.

This terrifies me. I still feel like I don't have a "normal" relationship with food. I consistently count calories, rationalize my choices, and obsess about events to come (*cough* School Pot Luck Today *cough*). I brought this up with my doctor. He must think I am cray cray. Every time I go see him I think there is something new wrong with me (Thank you, nursing). This though, my eating habits I mean, are not normal. Or better yet, I don't want them to be my normal.

Will I ever just eat freely, stop when I am full, and feel satisfied? Will I ever be able to make a spur of the moment choice and not have to "re-plan" my day?

He is referring me to a councilor to talk about these issues, as well as the issues surrounding my mother and father, and the relationship (or lack of) that I have with them. I think (read: I hope) this will help solve some of my underlying issues.

So now I weigh 123.5lb. That is still within my normal range of 120-125lb. I am still working out 5-6 times a week and walking my dogs 3-4 times a week (50-60min/time). My pants and shirts still fit the exact same way.

Considering the difficulties I have had with healthy eating during tutorial in the past, I consider this to be a success. My life seems maintainable at this point, and entering into clinical (read: A more structured eating plan and being on my feet all day) I think I will be able to continue with this.

I am kind of just thinking out typing (haha) right now ... trying to work through whatever is going on up in the ol' noggin.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Solid Attempt

Well, I have pretty much abandoned the no junk food challenge. Yup. It was a solid attempt and I got about 5 days in without anything, but the chocolate won. I almost felt like the fact that I "couldn't" have it made me obsess about it even more. In the end, I went through my bag of "junk" put some of the food that was taking up cupboard space in my disaster kit (Yes, I have a disaster kit), and called it a day. It was good while it lasted, but I am a girl who loves her sweets, and when I let myself have them I tend to demonstrate fairly good moderation.

Over the last few weeks though, with everything that has been going on - Work, Tutorial, Thanksgiving - I think this fact got away from me. I can eat a delicious cookie and be satisfied. I can have a hundred calorie ice cream stick for dessert and not want any more. I lost 70lb and I ate chocolate. Every. Single. Day. So what if I had a bad few weeks? Bad weeks happen. Smart people acknowledge them and move on.

I have written posts like this before. When I write these posts I always find my motivation to be good to myself spikes and I do well. Again, this is the ebb and flow of being healthy. Is this still new to me? Yes. This time last year, I was head over heels for a boy who didn't appreciate me. I was 155lb. I hated my body and my lack of "will power". I ate meat.

What has changed in a year?

Self discovery, Self love, Self worth.

I have run 2 10km races and a half marathon and plan to run another 2 half marathons next summer. I have joined indoor soccer, and scored a freaking goal in my first game. I exercise consistently. I move because I love it, not because I need it. I don't consume any meat, and try to limit my meat intake. I demonstrate fairly good moderation, and eat healthy about 70-80% of the time.

I am so happy.

I wrote a post at the beginning of 2011 about finding my Serenity. I wanted happiness, health, confidence, and acceptance. I have accomplished this. I made the decisions to get to the place that I am. I, alone, am responsible for my life and my decisions. I have maintained this since I decided to stop losing weight at the end of June. I will maintain this for the rest of my life.

I have worked my butt off to get here. A few bad weeks won't tear me down. I love who I have become and I plan on loving myself for the rest of my life. Sometimes that self love requires a few extra cookies, a piece of cake, or an ice cream bar, but most of the time that self love appreciates veggies, fruits, and whole grains, with a little dark chocolate on this side for antioxidants.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

I ate ...

half a piece of cake. I ran my butt off at work, and taught dance for 3 hours, I think I am safe to say that it was worked off considering the rest of my diary was stellar.

I also played my first game of indoor soccer last night! Very exciting! I was nervous - I haven't played indoor soccer since High School.

Guess what the best part is? I got a goal!! SO cool! I played forward, and ran my little booty off. I was so sweaty. Our team won 8-1. Needless to say, I am hooked! Can't wait till practice on Thursday and my next game on Friday! The girls on my team were super nice, and they were all amazed that it was my first game ever.

No junk food challenge - well aside from the well deserved mini piece of cake tonight (it gave sliver a whole new meaning), it is going well! How are you all doing?

Excited to go to Super Circuit in the AM and get my work out on :)

Be healthy & happy,

Friday, October 14, 2011


I stepped on the scale yesterday and was greeted by the number 123. Once the water weight was eliminated from the carb retention I felt less bloated and more like the normal "me".

Last night P and I went to Jerry Seinfeld to celebrate his 23rd birthday. Before the show we ate dinner at a pizza place where I enjoyed some beer battered fries and an entire veggie calzone. No dessert though! Which I considered a success because they had this succulent (yes, succulent) looking Banana Foster thing that had my mouth watering!

Back on track today though. And feeling pretty good about it. I have my first indoor soccer game tonight! Not going to lie, I am super nervous. I don't know if I even remember how to play, let alone maneuver the ball, so it will definitely be interesting. I hope I don't let my team down too badly!

How are you all doing so far?

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

How's it going so far?

Day one was a success for me. I baked cookies and instead of sampling I had my dad try them and tell me if they were serve-worthy or not! I also didn't eat any chocolate, which is a pretty big fricken deal for me!

The result? A 1lb loss over night of water weight. I am going to do a few more daily weighs just so I can figure out where my body truly is. I feel good though.

Day 2 and going strong, I really attribute it to the removal of all junk from the cupboards, however I am considering bringing back the Peanut Butter because I use the all natural stuff and as a vegetarian (in moderation) it is a source of protein. It is also loaded with good fats, and it isn't a trigger food for me.

Okay, well I pretty much just convinced myself that I am allowed to have it again haha. I never just randomly snack on PB and if I do use it, it is on toast, oats, or fruit, and never more than half a tablespoon. People, if you use PB like me I am pretty sure you are safe to continue using it :)

How has your progress been so far?

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Lets Get Serious

I was going to write a fantastic post on Thanksgiving/Holiday survival. I had it all planned out ...  the points I wanted to touch on, the suggestions to make saying "No thanks" easier, the foods to pile up on and the tips to staying hunger-free ... Yup, the whole nine yards.

I was excited for this post! I haven't done a "serious" post in a while considering balancing a very busy schedule of animals, gym, school, and work.
So ... why didn't it happen?

I will be 100% honest with anyone who is reading this. Because I had a major train crash, right off the rails, of a bridge, into a roaring river below. There were no survivors.

Okay, Okay. There was one survivor ... but she barely made it out alive. She ... was me.

Went to work on Friday evening with the full intention of eating my supper and ONLY my supper. I told myself that I was going to avoid any treats they had out because I would be eating plenty come dinner at P's house on Saturday. Well they had a big tin of those delicious chocolate covered cookies. You know the kind that has the multitude of different kinds? Yeah. That one. And they had not one, but TWO boxes of gourmet chocolate. So I had about 5 chocolates and about 10 cookies.

So I was upset with myself. And I wanted to go home. But with three sick calls I agreed to work a double shift ... with no back up food. So I downed an energy drink (Mhm.) and bought a veggie tray with good intentions.

Well, after being up for what, 20 hours straight, I caved, and ate about 5 more chocolates and 15 more cookies.

I then proceeded to go home, sleep for an hour and a half, wake up, eat my oatmeal, go teach dance, eat an entire Hershey's Almond Bar, and then go to Paul's house for Thanksgiving Dinner where I ate about 40 chocolate almonds and a large slice of Pumpkin Angel Food Cake.

Sugar overload? Oh. I'm not done yet.

The next morning I polished off two more large slices of Pumpkin Angel Food Cake, and another 10 chocolate almonds, all within about 45 minutes of finishing my breakfast of oatmeal and three slices of toast. Yes. Three.

I finished off yesterday with a normal fashion (thank god) and had full intentions of being 100% back on track today. Well at work, I ate 1 and a half Cherry Chip Cupcakes, a half slice of pumpkin pie, and a half slice of cheesecake.

Phew. Confession over.

Gross right? Now that I look back over what I have done I feel disgusted with myself. I am far far far from a perfect healthy eater, and I think sometimes I put too much pressure on myself to be perfect that I end up caving and going bat shit for a few days.

Leah's No Junk Food Challenge is just what I need to get myself off of this sugar overload. I am excited for the 20 days, but nervous for the first few as I know they will be extremely challenging.

Below is a picture of the food that I cleaned out of my cupboards and freezer. This is all my "Junk" (not including baking goodies, but I won't be baking anything anytime soon as I won't be able to try it!). Laying it all out there for you to see.

It makes me wonder ... How the fuck did I get to 123ish pounds eating like this? That is a lot of junk.

Packed 'er all up and into the closet it went. I can't throw it out. I am too frugal for that. Plus I don't plan on living without chocolate and peanut butter forever, that's just crazy talk.

Whats in this lovely picture? Here are a few items: Envirokids Peanut Butter Choco'Drizzle Bars, Kashi Bars (Dark Mocha Almond, Cherry Dark Chocolate), Lindor Peanut Butter Balls, Lindt Dark Chocolate, Dagoba Dark Chocolate, Cambino Dark Chocolate, Planet Organic Cashew Bars (quartered and frozen), M&M Meat Shops Banana Choco Skewers, Purdy's Peanut Butter Fingers, Presidents Choice Ice Cream Topper x 3 (top my oatmeal with it!), Kraft Natural PB, Nutella, Cinnamon Spread, Monin Chocolate Chip Cookie Syrup (for coffee), Organic Chocolate Chunk Cookies, Lara Bars (Peanut Butter, PB & J, PB & Choco Chip), Mini Tobelerone, Oreo 100 calorie Ice Cream Bars, Organic Raspberry Fruit Bars, Nestle Real Dairy Vanilla Ice Cream Singles, Marshmallow Cream, Peak Frean Cookies and Mini Frozen Yogurt Bars. Side Note: Please ignore the rubbing alcohol in the background ... The Father uses that as part of his airplane building workshop haha.
Barf. In. My. Mouth.
Who loves Sugar?

I DO. 

Hailey, Natasha, Missy, and Jamie (and anyone else who gives this challenge a try), I know that we can do it. It won't be easy. Hell, it will probably be one of the more harder things I have ever done. But once we get off that original sugar dependance I imagine things will clear up and become less of a struggle. I am going to post regular updates to keep myself accountable, I hope to see your posts and get your emails as well throughout these 20 days!

I got a new tattoo today on my right wrist. It says υγεία which is the Greek word for health, after the Greek Goddess of health. As the father of modern medicine (Hippocrates) was also from Greece I figured it was a suiting language (not to mention very pretty and dainty) to get inked on my wrist. It will serve as a constant reminder for the choices that I make and the repercussions they might have. As a former "unhealthy" person, Health is one of my most valued gifts, and I wake up thankful every day for the health discovery journey I am on.

This is another chapter in that journey, Are you ready to share it with me?

Unfortunate Update: Scale said 125.5 this morning. It is quite possible that I ate an extra 7000 calories to gain that much weight. That's how bad it was. That is not a number I like to see. That in itself is motivating me to want to change.

Monday, October 10, 2011

No Junk Food Challenge!

Anyone care to join me?

My challenge will begin tomorrow (October 11th) and run 20 days (October 31st).

Wish me luck ... I am going to need it.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Lacombe In Motion Run Recap & Where I am at

This is coming a few days late and sans pictures but I suppose that is better than never!

I stepped on the scale this morning ... 122lb. I am back to where I want to be. I attribute this to focusing on reducing my refined sugar in take and trying to eat whole foods. This is how I want to continue eating and this is the base thought that guides my decisions related to food.

I have been experimenting a lot in the kitchen in regards to healthy baking and I am proud to say that I haven't gone over board and eaten a whole pan of brownies or cheesecake, WINNING.

I ran in the Lacombe in Motion 10km Run on Sunday. It was a good run through the back trails of Lacombe, however the trails were in fairly terrible conditions and I had to look down for the majority to avoid roots and holes .... I have terrible coordination to begin with so I was very happy to finish this run in a mediocre 73 min. Hey, at least it was injury free!!

School is busy, but good. I am starting to realize that this is going to come to an end and that I actually need to start making some serious grown up decisions regarding where I want to work and live.

Planning a Thanksgiving Survival post ... watch for it!