healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Boys.. Boys.. Ugh. Boys.

Been Bloggin' a lot lately... Must have a lot to say. That or I am so incredibly bored from reading week. I dunno. Haha

As of today, I am swearing off Boys. "What a ridiculous claim", some might say, but I truly believe it is the answer to finding happiness within myself, and lets face it. Every guy (*ahem* boy), I have chosen since Matthias hasn't worked out well in my favor. I am starting to see a trend with the guys I see, and this needs to stop Right Meow.

All of them have been lazy, unmotivated, and not willing to put in any effort or commitment. Not to say they haven't been nice guys, they have all been very nice, just not at the same level as I am.

I am smart, funny, semi-confident (confident in personality, kinda O.K. with my looks), motivated, accomplished (at 20, I am the president of my school's Nursing Society, plus at the age of 21 I will be a Registered Nurse, WOAH!), kind, caring, compassionate, romantic, and fairly easy to please.

Whilst discussing my annoying love life with a friend she pointed out that she didn't think I was ready to make a commitment and this is why the guys I am attracting are bad-news-bears. This pretty much stopped me in my tracks and made me think... Yeah, that sums it up.

I was committed for 5 years of my adolescent/young adult life. Now don't get me wrong, they were a good 5 years and I am so incredibly thankful that Matthias and I are moving on and are good friends, but this has kind of turned me off commitment, hence the guys I am attracting only want to be the ever lovely Friends-With-Benefits.

Now, for the first few months I was Okay with the whole idea, and some days even now I am Okay with it. It is nice knowing people want to be intimate with you, but with no intimate emotions attached.

I decided I was going to go at it alone, at least for my coming 6 week clinical, because lets face it, I am just too busy for a guy.

All in all, my conclusion stands. No boys, men, guys for me. I am done with lowering my standards for anyone. I deserve to be taken on a real date and to be "woo-ed". If I meet the guy willing to put in the effort, I will be equally as willing, but right now that looks bleak.

I need to be happy on my own before I can be happy with someone else. I am every so slowly getting there! :)