healthy |ˈhelθē|adjective ( healthier , healthiest )in good health: : feeling fit and healthy.• (of a part of the body) not diseased : healthy cells.• indicative of, conducive to, or promoting good health : a healthy appetite | a healthy balanced diet.• (of a person's attitude) sensible and well balanced : a healthy contempt for authority.• figurative in a good condition• desirable; beneficial• A conscious choice; A life-long commitment.

Friday, December 30, 2011

2012; The Year of Transition

2012 will be a very important year for me for many reasons, and to represent this I decided that my word will be Transition.
transition |tranˈzi sh ən; -ˈsi sh ən| 
noun; the process or a period of changing from one state or condition to another
2012 Transitions:
  • Vegan Diet; Not strictly vegan, but much more than I am now. I hope that with cutting out Chocolate, and my natural distaste for milk, I will just need to work on the whole love affair with Greek Yogurt.
  • Nurse; Yup, in 2012 I will become a Registered Nurse. I will have a University Degree. I am mighty terrified and I have no idea what will come of this.
  • Fiance? Matthias, if you are reading this.... *wink* I hope to transition into this role at some point during 2012... Wedding date was set originally for July 6th, 2013, perhaps we can keep this very important date as our anniversary?
  • Move Into My Own Place; AKA: Place with Matthias. Self Explanatory. Again, depends on the job situation.
  • Becoming Guardian of my Sister; Working on it.
  • Duathlete; Eeeeek.
  • More Experienced 1/2 Marathoner; Hoping to run 2 more races this year, one will be with my very important friend Danielle.
  • Not Counting Calories; I put this one last because it is my ultimate goal. To be able to reach a point where I can listen to my body and not have to count calories to maintain my healthy and happy weight. This transition would truly change my life and bring me a lot of peace.. We shall see how it goes.
I love finding out your 2012 Words! Have you picked one yet? What does it mean to you?

The Chocolate Diaries [Day 1]

0315 - I have eaten way too many chocolate and cadbury cookies. Why can’t I just stop at one? I succeed at everything but cutting back on my chocolate. This needs to stop. How did I get off of McDonalds? I quit eating meat. How am I going to get off of Chocolate? Quit eating it.

0745 - At home and cleaning out my cupboards of all the chocolate. I can’t bear to throw it all out, so I bagged it up and put it in my closet to give to my little sister in her lunches. What am I going to miss the most? Definitely the Caramel Cashew Bars from Planet Organic. They definitely need to go in the trash or I will eat em all up. Damn. I wish I hadn’t bought all of these Luna Bars and Terry’s Chocolate Orange Mini’s. Sis will get those too. I can’t bear to get rid of the Peanut Butter Fiber 1 Bars, Strawberry Fiber 1 Bars, and Chocolate PB2 (purchased online = expensive). They will remain until they are eaten and healthy chocolate-free Granola bars and Regular PB2 will be purchased from here on out.

0800 - My last bite of chocolate is a Caramel Nut Brownie Luna Bar. It is divine. My second last bite of chocolate was a quarter of a Caramel Cashew Bar. It was (and still is) heaven.

0830 - Time for sleep after a night shift.

1130 - No chocolate for me. PB Toast and a Smoothie for a pre-spin class snack.

1400 - Standing in line at Tim Hortons: I want a chocolate timbit. I want a Candy Cane Donut. I want a Toasted Coconut chocolate timbit. I want a Honey Crueller (the most unhealthy) timbit. I want a Dutchie. Yes. I thought all of these thoughts in the 2 mins I was in the line up. I leave Tim’s with a Large Coffee (1/2 Cream, 1 Milk), and a White Candy Cane Hot Chocolate for the Sis. I want to try it. I don’t.

1515 - I am typing this up. Let me clarify: I am still going to enjoy dessert, just not chocolate. No chocolate chips in cookies, no chocolate pudding, no chocolate ice cream. Other desserts (ex. Cappuccino Ice Cream or Vanilla Pudding) will be enjoyed when desired but they lack a lot of the lure that chocolate does. I am hypothesizing that my dessert intake will be reduced dramatically. I am hopeful that my taste buds will once again change and fruit will become sweet enough to tame the choco-beast within me. I am scared of the very probable withdrawal.

1800 - I bought some healthier chocolate free desserts like sugar free dulce de leche pudding, fruit cups, apple sauce and chocolate free granola bars.

2120 - I “relapsed”. I ate 2 Mini LeClerc Celebration Cookies and a 100 Calorie Purdy’s Peanut Butter Finger when putting together a dessert platter for a New Years Party tomorrow. I am not being too hard on myself. I will go to sleep and start again fresh. There will be slip ups, more as I try to get myself off of this in the first place. Once I get the healthy habit engrained the slip ups will become less and less.

I quit

Right now.
Cold turkey.
Enough is enough.
P.S. Chocolate Log to follow.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

2011 in Review

So this is the time of year when everyone does a little recap of how 2011 went, what was accomplished, what may be put off to this year, and what was learned.
 I would just like to say that 2011 was pretty awesome. It has set me up with high expectations of 2012 and as long as the end of the world doesn't come (but lets not talk about that), I can imagine 2012 will be a pretty wicked year.

Here is a quick list of my highlights and lowlights of the year:

  • Hit my goal weight..... then surpassed it.
  • Regular exercise is a part of my lifestyle.
  • I ran a 10km run, and then a half marathon, after not even being about to run 1.5km without needing a break.
  • I signed up for a Duathlon and a Second Half Marathon for 2012!
  • I met a workout buddy!
  • I fell in love with my soul mate... again. And then each time I see him, I fall in love again. How lucky am I?
  • I made it through being the president of the nursing society and learned a lot!
  • I bought a brand new car!
  • I went to Hamilton, Toronto, Winnipeg and Banff.
  • I continued with a vegetarian diet and reached my 1 year vegiversary.
  • I found Serenity.
  • At the beginning of the year I struggled with confidence and identifying my self worth.. this was expressed through poor decisions such as drinking and partying a bit to much and surrounding myself with bad people.
  • Sciatica
  • Food Addiction
  • Family issues, but I keep those private ;)
So as 2011 wraps up and I squeeze in as much rest and TLC as I can before school starts, I can confidently say that I am ready for 2012 and the challenges that I will face.

I have chosen my 2012 word! That's coming up next.

What's your word for 2012?

Monday, December 26, 2011

Old Habits Stay Hungry

Heh. Last night, after 2-3 days of an all out eat-fest (Think gallons of Eggnog Spiced Nuts and 3ish pieces of Peanut Butter Tobelerone Cheesecake) I decided to re-read my Christmas Blog Post from 2010.

I felt the exact same way last night! No joke. I seriously do not regret the nuts, cheesecake, cookies, or chocolate, they were all delicious, but I hate feeling like I am going to explode. That is never a good feeling.

I was totes rocking a 3 month preggo food belly. Yum.

There is really no point in beating myself up for it. It is one (okay, 3) days, not the end of the world, and surely not how I plan to continue eating. I did step on the scale this morning and it showed the terrifying number 127.5. Yeah. I didn't like that so much. But that is what I get for choices that I made.

What would I be if I wasn't completely honest on this blog? Denial = Fat. And I ain't about that.

Today as an effort to rid myself of some bloat I am doing a Raw Fruits and Veggies Cleanse. That is all I am going to eat today and tomorrow until I pick Matthias up. It might not be easy, but I think it will be totally worth it to have all that good stuff flowing through my veins again. Lots of water and black tea will be consumed as well! LOTS of clean eating this week, and after 2 rest days I am hitting the gym Full Force Monday-Saturday!

Hope your holidays were fabulous! Mine were nice and relaxing - a little bit of work, a lot of paper writing.

Saturday, December 24, 2011

My Back On Track Plan .... Post-Christmas

I sit here, on Christmas Eve, preparing my back on track plan, because I want to be able to fully enjoy myself tonight and the food that I am going to eat.

Christmas Eve Dinner (With the Sis and the Dad)
- Tofurky with Gravy & Stuffing
- Brussel Sprouts and Buttah
- Freshly Made Croissants
- Broccoli Slaw
- Mashed Cauliflower

And for dessert.... I am going to try and make my own Eggnog Banana Ice Cream! Blend 1 Frozen Banana with Nutmeg, Cinnamon, Brown Sugar and Rum Extract. I will update you all on how it turned out! (Update: too much cinnamon, not enough nutmeg, was a bust.)

I am celebrating Christmas on Christmas Eve because I work an evening shift tomorrow. Although I imagine there will be tons of sweets there tomorrow I am going to consciously try and choose the ones that I will love, not just like. That way I will enjoy it to fullest!

Boxing day is going to be all about the raw veggies and fruits. Smoothie, Salad, Veggies, Hummus. No sweets.

Tuesday I am picking Matthias up from the Airport in Calgary and we are going to be trying out The Coup. I am really excited for it. I am going to have the Organic Rainbow Greens salad to start, and the Greek Goddess as my main. I may enjoy a coconut chai... if I am feeling like something warm. If I want something cold I may have some White or a Phillips Longboat Chocolate Porter (Beer). For dessert (because who wouldn't?!) I hope to either split the White Chocolate Cheesecake or Vegan Chocolate Torte. It will be my final indulgence of 2011.

Starting December 28th I am going to try my best to do a "No Sugar Challenge" (yes....again) for 2 weeks. 14 days seems do-able right? I also tried my best to make it Amie-friendly, meaning I am allowing myself 1 square of dark chocolate a day. Not bad right? Take a look:
I wont be adding sugar to coffee, oatmeal, greek yogurt, anything. I will use stevia in it's place, because it is all natural and doesn't affect the blood sugar. No ice cream, no cookies, no cake, no squares.... no BAKING. No chips either.. but those are savory ;)

1 Square of Extra Fine Lindor Dark Chocolate, at my choice of time during the day. Any other sweetness will come from Fruit.

Once the 2 weeks are up, I hope that the habit will be broken enough to add 1 sweet treat into my diet once per week. I think that this is an acceptable amount.

We shall see how it goes :)

Hope you all have a great Christmas!

Friday, December 23, 2011

Mindful Eating

Zen habits posted a great blog post today on Mindful Eating during the holidays and I thought I would share it with you all. Click here for the full article.

I think it is important that even if you are trying to lose weight right now, do not, and I repeat, do not, beat yourself up for enjoying yourself this holiday season. Christmas is one, maybe 2 days of less healthy choices, it is not going to define the eating habits for the rest of your life.

Yes, you should probably try and load of on the healthy stuff like salad, and when eating appy's go for the raw veggies, but you also need to live life, and sometimes that means eating a full slice of eggnog cheesecake (Holy, yum.) to yourself, or eating 5 pot of gold chocolates. Now, if you have these items on hand ALL the time, maybe don't eat that much, but if they are something special, treat them that way. Enjoy them. Savor them.

Have a happy holiday,

P.S. Half Marathon Round 2 training starts in t-8days. But who's counting?!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011


Tuesday, December 20, 2011


What is Success?

No Big Deal or Anything.
Okay, Okay, it is. :)

Feeling Free with Food

"You just have to trust that if you’re doing the best you can, and you’re moving your body in some way each day, and eating well, that you will find the weight that’s true to the life you want to live. That weight should include desserts when you want them, drinks when you need them, and laying on the couch all day because your DVR talks sweeter than the pavement." Source
I still think about my weight, what I eat, and the exercise I do, like, A lot. I have talked before about how scared I am to gain back the weight I have lost. I had a brief moment this summer when I felt "free" of my food constraints but when school started back up, the fear of re-gain creeped back in to my life and since then, it has become consuming once more.

I love to exercise. This is the one thing I do feel completely free about. It really isn't torture anymore. I run when I feel like it. I love taking cardio and weight classes. I am slowly *slowly* starting to lift more weights. I miss walking like I did in the summer and I look forward to the warm-ish winter days when I can get out and take my 2 best canine-friends for a stroll, but I acknowledge that is part of where I live. One day, when I have $$$ I will buy a treadmill simply because I love moving my body, but don't necessarily want to sweat it out day after day. I love taking yoga classes, teaching dance, and trying out a killer Jillian Micheal's DVD. I do it because it is fun, and because I feel strong and centered after I am done. It is "me" time. And I deserve that. I have no fears about falling off the exercise band-wagon. It is something I know I will and want to commit to for the rest of my life.

Eating hasn't come so easily. When my sciatica was at its worst in June-July and I stopped running, I cried many-a-time, worrying that I would gain back what I had worked so so so hard to achieve.

But I didn't.

I lost 8 more pounds.

How did that happen?

Well I suppose I started to trust myself a teeny-tiny bit more. I believed that if I continued to eat whole foods and put food in my body that I knew to be good for me, that I would be okay for the time being and that when I could start exercising more heavily again I would lose the weight I had gained. This quasi-free mind-set let me say 'yes' and 'no' to foods without over thinking it too much, let me eat ice cream when I wanted, let me drink a beer or 4 when I felt like being cray-cray, and let me enjoy my summer.

I gained a bit of weight on my birthday. I gained a bit of weight when I went to Banff. I lost what I gained both times. Not by dieting, but by returning to healthy habits.

I miss that feeling.

I can openly say that I am less active now than when I was training for my first half marathon. It's the walking that is gone. It might have only been 50min a day, which doesn't make too much of a difference, but it was 50min of reflection, thinking, and enjoying the sun. It was 50min of freedom and happiness.

When school started and the weather turned chilly-ish, I stayed inside and took up baking. I wasn't as neurotic about baking as I had been in the past. I didn't eat an entire pan. I didn't throw out because I thought it would be too much temptation (not every time at least). But I did sample. I did eat. Yes, I did over-eat.

That's okay though, and like I have said before sometimes you need a bit of a slip up to realize that you miss your more healthy ways. Do I need to bake something every day? Absolutely Not. Was I? Unfortunately Yes.

I am making a conscious decision as I type this to give myself permission to bake when I want to, what I want to, but not for the comfort of being busy and doing something, but for a purpose instead. Christmas Party? Sure. Tutorial Potluck? Alrighty. Cookies Just Because I am Bored? Umm.. Maybe not (all the time!).

So now that the baking bit is sorted out I need to really work on the eating what I want, when I want, but not in excess.

What do I want to eat? Healthy stuff of course!! I obviously feel better, less consumed, and more reflective on life when I am fueling with the good stuff.

I worry about excessive eating. I don't really know if this will go away? This is what got me fat in the first place and the only thing I can do to change that is be mindful and slow when I am eating.

I am going to try at least, to be a bit more easy on myself. I am still going to track food, because I am not really ready to stop that. But I am going to up my calories once more and see how that goes. Does that mean I am going to make sure I eat them all every day? No. I am really going to tune in to my body and listen for my hunger signals. I know that my hunger starts really slow. It is hard to describe the feeling but I suppose all I really notice is that I start to think about food more. I don't feel it in my stomach until it is too late and I am famished. Now that I know this I can listen to my thoughts a bit more closely.

I am still going to step on the scale every Sunday, regardless of how my week has been. Regular weighing is associated with weight loss maintenance. What point is there of turning away from the scale? None. That is avoidance and that will get me fat.

I will enjoy life, food, and everything it has to offer. I will try and find my free.

Right now, if that means gaining a few pounds, gaining a size, and needing to buy new jeans, fine. It takes too much energy to obsess about staying the size I am. I want to re-focus on eating healthy for being healthy, not for being a size 2. A size 4 is perfect as well, and I am silly for thinking otherwise.

To the people who have emailed me recently - I PROMISE I will write back within the week!

Have a happy, healthy, free Holiday. I will be working, so I get to spend my Christmas with all of the new families :) Happy times.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Gain & Inches Update

Weight: 124lb

Waist: 27in (+0.5)
Hips: 36in (+0.5)
Chest: 35.5in (+0.5)
Thigh: 22in (+1.0)
Arm: 11in

Well as you can see I have gained a bit of weight. 2.5lb from my "favorite weight" to be exact. Now, I realize 124lb is not a bad number at all, and in fact, many people would want to be able to maintain that weight, as it is just a number. But I am a student, and I can't afford to gain any more weight because I have Size 2 pants that need to be worn.

My downfall has definitely been with the baking and the sweets and that is stopping right now. I will be cutting back my sugar in take because it has gotten slightly out of control and I don't like that.

This isn't the end of the world by any means, I just need to hold myself accountable for my actions so that I can get back to the weight that I want to be at. I will be weighing every Sunday and working my butt off to get there.

How do you all avoid holiday gain? Or is it something you have just come to expect?

Wednesday, December 14, 2011


Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Mish Mash

Today is a great day for a post. I am getting a cold. I slept in late. Almost missed my Chiropractor Appointment. Oh, and my thighs and quads are still killing me from the bazillions of squats I did on Sunday's Super Circuit Class.

Perfectly good day :)

I have never been a big Eggnog fan. Working at Starbucks for 4 years and making hundreds of Eggnog latte's during Christmas Season, I have tried my fair share of the 'nog. Always thinking "This year it will be better," to no avail. Last week, on my last day of clinical, my field guide took me out for drinks. I overheard a waitress talking about their Eggnog drink special, and alas, my curiosity was sparked. I ordered one, but to lighten it up I ordered half milk. Here's the mix: 1/2 Eggnog, 1/2 Milk, 1/2 ounce Butter Ripple Schnapps, 1/2 ounce Baileys. ..................... Heaven in an alcoholic drink.

I downed two of those babies and was instantly hooked. Nog > Almond Milk. In every way possible. Including Calories lol.

Last night my 'nog craving needed to be satisfied. I needed to feed the beast. I went to Safeway and picked up some Light Eggnog. It took all my power not to drink it straight from the carton on the way home! I enjoyed a half cup last night, and poured some over some chocolate pudding for dessert (weird, but tasty), and this morning I added some to my Soy Coffee Misto. Tomorrow I am going to make Nog Oats for breakfast, and possibly splurge and get an Eggnog Smoothie from Booster Juice. I can only imagine how high in calories it is... so I am thinking a small size made with half 'nog half soy would be delicious and a little more waist line conscious? 

This post was originally titled "Living in Maintenance" but it has quickly turned to a mash up of everything. So lets continue with that.

I am looking forward to January 1st. I am going to start officially running again and training for the Woody's Half Marathon!! Running and I kind of broke up after the Dino Half... I just needed to do other things. I think I have run 6 times since September? Still been plenty active, just less running. But I am itching to hit the pavement treadmill (I am a baby who has declared I don't enjoy running in the elements), and start logging the miles.

I have really been reflecting on my 2011 Goals, specifically my 2011 word, Serenity.
"Happiness, Health, Confidence, Acceptance

This is what I want to focus on this year. I want to be happy, with myself, my relationships, my commitments, my life. I want to be healthy, to find that "Aha!" weight where I feel it all come together, where I don't constantly look in the mirror wondering if I look fat. I want to be confident, in my body, mind and soul, to take pride in my accomplishments and own them. And the most important one (in my opinion), I want to find acceptance of myself and my life, what it was, is, and what it will become."
Wow. Reading that makes it all click. I have searched for that for so long, and mid-June I found it. I don't remember the exact day. But I do remember thoughts like "I don't want to lose any more weight" and "If I could stay this size and shape forever I would be happy" (HAH! I know that isn't realistic, but it is pretty encompassing of accepting myself).

I totally own all of my accomplishments. I am so proud of everything I have done and all of the hard work that I put in to myself. It was a huge fucking struggle, not going to lie, but it has been worth every bead of sweet, every tear, every crazy-OCD thought.

Has my weight fluctuated? Yes. As I have posted before, lowest was 121.5, currently sitting at 123.5. Do my clothes still fit? Yes. Do I still maintain a decent activity level? Yes. Is the winter and cold weather harder to make this possible? Yes.

I was talking to Matthias last night about how in the summer I loved eating a big plate of raw veggies and hummus or a giant chilled salad, because the weather was warm and you could do that sort of thing. Now that I am not obsessing so much about my food choices I find that I am currently gravitating to warm comfort foods like chili, soup, anything to warm ma' belly. I think this is the way it goes though? I am still currently in a huge learning phase because this is the first winter-christmas-holiday season where I am at a goal weight hoping to maintain. It isn't about losing. It is about staying the same.

Reflecting on the previous months ... Summer was a piece of cake. Outside to work out, Walk the dogs for an hour a day. Of course I got down to 121.5! I was so flippin' active. Now, although I still work out 6 days a week, I am missing the hour long walks because of the cool weather. What I'd really love is a treadmill. I could walk and read, walk and watch tv, walk and cruise the net, you get the jist. Maybe that is what I will save for once I am a real nurse? :)

I am starting to plan my 2012 word... it needs to have something to do with Consistency, Happiness, Growth, Growing-Up (Hello Graduation and Real World Employment), and Love. Any ideas?

How have your resolutions been coming along? Yes, it is December, but you can make small steps towards them every day and accomplish something great in the next 25 days!
Are you starting to think about your 2012 resolutions?

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Update ?

Oh Hey.

I haven't dropped off the face of the planet.


Quick Update:
  • Things are working out with Matthias ... he ended things with the girl who has a baby, and we have been talking every day and reacquainting ourselves. I feel so lucky to have such a wonderful man love me unconditionally. It truly amazes me that he still feels that way about me even after a year and a half of being apart. We had our first re-kiss on Monday, and it was amazing. It was the best first kiss I have ever had. I can't even explain it. It was that good. Woah.
  • Clinical is OVAH. One more presentation and then a month of almost-freedom. I have a long to-do list over Christmas which includes studying for a pharmacology test, writing a paper, orientating myself to Edmonton, putting together a portfolio of sorts, Christmas Baking (!), and of course, working out. I am also taking a few days with Matthias to vacay to Banff and Lake Louise. I have never been to LL, so I am excited to experience its beauty.
  • Eating and weight are consistent. No loss, No gain. I am maintaining between 122.5-124, which is just fine by me.
I will write a "good" post sometime after my presentation next week! Hope you are all well.

Saturday, November 26, 2011


I clearly don't do it enough.

Amie, 4 Years Old and as Serious as ever

My 1st Vegetarian Anniversary

1 year ago tomorrow I made a huge change in my life. I had lost about 30 pounds, but was no where near where I wanted to be in terms of weight loss and my life. I still binge-ate at McDonalds at least once a week and I had no idea what I could do to stop this. I felt out of control.

I decided to become a vegetarian for the wrong reasons. You should never make a huge dietary change or remove a food group for weight loss reasons and I realize this now. I don't maintain my current lifestyle for the same reasons that I started with. I have done lots of research since cutting meat and most dairy from my diet and for me, it will be a lifelong thing.

Not eating meat has increased my energy, regulated my digestive system, and has changed my food pallet. I was never really a fan of vegetables prior to my decision to become a vegetarian. This is changed completely. I love almost all vegetables and all fruits and they are staples in my diet.

I don't push my lifestyle on anyone, but I encourage people to do research for themselves and make decisions based on that. If you aren't ready to cut meat out of your life entirely try taking a small step like "Meatless Monday".

Have you made any huge changes in your diet that you have loved or hated? Tell me about them :)

Thank you for all the kind words of support about my personal struggles at this time. Your emails and comments have been very helpful and insightful. I will give you an update on what is happening soon.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Let me tell you a story...

Thank you so much for the words of support. They truly mean more to me than I can express.

There once was a girl, a fourteen year old girl, who had never been in love before. This girl had told her best friend that she thought she would one day marry her highschool sweetheart, even though she didn't know him just yet.

One Saturday in May she was invited by her cousin to an 18th birthday party, the birthday boy, she had never met. This was the night they met. Not drinking, but surrounded by drunk people, the shy 14 year old girl stepped out of her comfort zone. She started talking to the birthday boy, only to discover he was German. Feeling courageous she told the boy to talk dirty to her in German (haha). The boy fumbled with his words but eventually spurted something out that the girl didn't understand. The girl asked him to translate, to which he responded "Well, in German, it means 'your hot' but directly translated to English, it means 'your horny'." That was the first laugh they shared.

The next day he was added to her MSN, but she had a crush on a different boy and didn't think much of the German. She started dating the other boy a few weeks later, but he quickly presented himself in the form of emotional abuse, to which the girl did not enjoy. This boy had 2 sisters, large and in charge sisters, that had threatened to "beat her up" for hurting their brother. That night, at a rural community dance, they showed up, and the girl spent the night hiding by cuddling with another (yes, another) boy. That night, she saw the German again for a second time, and he was not in a good mood. She said 'hello' to him and he brushed her off. This didn't phase the girl too much, but she remembers him walking past her in the dark to this day, and the look of anger on his face.

Slowly, the girl started talking to the German boy more and more, when she realized that it was not going to work out with the boy she had cuddled that night. They stayed up late, MSN'ing, learning about each other, laughing, and enjoying each others company. She set her desktop background as his picture, her favorite picture of him, and sheepishly showed her mom that this was the boy she liked.

They had their first date on July 1st, 2005. The girl was 14, the boy 18. They went to a movie, War of the Worlds, and the girl hated the idea of aliens so much that half way through she held the boys hand... and then his other hand. They only spoke a maximum of 5 words between each other that night. After the movie, the boy and his friend quickly shot up and left the theater, leaving the girl and her cousin sitting in the chairs still. Puzzled and slightly hurt they followed them out, and silently waited until her mom picked her and her cousin up. She hugged the German boy when she left, and she felt like it had been a successful first date.

They continued talking on MSN, even though the girl went to Red Deer to visit her dad. She stayed up until the sun was rising, quickly falling for this boy and everything about him.

July 6th, 2005 he asked her to be his girlfriend. The girl was so happy.

She went home from Red Deer early that year, because she didn't want to be away from the boy any longer. They went to her parents cabin together on the weekend of her return, along with her cousin and her boyfriend (which just so happened to be the German's friend). They had lots of fun, and on a night when a cooler or 2 was consumed the girl and the boy had their first kiss. That kiss was photographed. The girl still has that photo to this day. They spent that night kissing and their teeth crashed together on more than one occasion, to which they laughed and continued on. He slept on the ground, she on the couch, and he held her hand the entire night, even though his wrist was in an awkward angle.

The girl quickly identified that this was her first love. By September the boy and his mother were not getting a long, and the girls mother offered that the boy stay with them. At 15, the girl and the boy lived together.

Conventional? No. But the girl wouldn't change it for anything.

They laughed, they joked, they had so much fun together. The girl remembers all the silly moments, like when he told her not to go still when he picked her up, and she did, just to bug him, and he farted (the first time in front of her) as he collapsed, unable to hold her up, he was so embarrassed. She remembers the time he put his arms around her tummy and squeezed, and she farted from the pressure (the first time in front of him), she was so embarrassed.

In April of 2006, when the girl was almost 16, the mother and the girl were no longer getting along, and the girl and the boy moved out.

Conventional? No. But the girl wouldn't change it for anything.

They built a raggedy house together, too poor to buy anything nice. When their roommate moved, they periodically returned to the girls home, until they found another room mate to live with. They got a cat, miss Olivia.

Although they were always happy together, bad eating habits and being lazy quickly took over day to day routines, and their weights escalated. They still loved each other despite this, but it led to self hate.

When the girl graduated, they moved to Red Deer together, as that is where she wanted to go to school. He willingly followed her, leaving all of his friends and family behind, and the girl took this for granted.

The boy had trouble making friends in this new city as all of the people he worked with were older, but he still had her and she still had him.

They got another cat, Mr. Oliver, and then a dog. Tucker brought more happiness to them than they expected and they eagerly read up on how to raise a dog before getting him. He was their baby, their child, and he was spoiled rotten.

Stuck in a rut.

Self hate.

Unhappiness consumed the now woman. Not related to the boy, but related to the fact that the woman couldn't change her life. In a drastic attempt to change, she moved out and home with her dad.

She wrecked the German. His poor coping skills led to her distress, and the guilt of causing another person so much pain haunted her. She still had to see him, because she shared custody of Tucker, and this was difficult on both of them.

The woman met Jake.

Jake left.

The woman became a Vegetarian.

The woman met Andrew.

Simply put, Andrew was a douche.

Andrew (thankfully) left.

The woman swore off boys and took up running.

The woman reached her goal weight, and then surpassed it.

The woman and the boy became friends again, and the woman knew she missed him, although she would never admit it to anyone else. The boy started to date another girl. A prettier girl. And the woman started to feel alone.

The woman met Paul.

The woman ran a 10km run.

The woman struggled with Sciatica.

The woman struggled with not seeing Paul regularly, but for the most part, kept it to herself.

The woman ran a half marathon.

The German and the Pretty Girl broke up. The German's friend, a girl who had just had a baby, moved in.

The German said he would never date the friend, even though she liked him, A Lot.

The German and the woman remained friends, even though she was dating Paul.

The woman got sick of not seeing Paul. The woman realized that maybe the German was right when he told her that no one could love her like he did.

The stubborn woman admitted defeat. She ended it with Paul, because she could not see things working out. This made the woman sad.

The woman realized that it was through her own self sabotage that she attempted to take control of the situations she was in. To maintain control, she had to be the one to end relationships because lets face it, she thought, they will leave her eventually anyways.

At 4 in the morning, the woman called Paul. No answer. The woman called Matthias. A groggy German listened to her cry and vent for an hour. The woman realized that every decision she had made up until now had been the right one at the time. Ending it with the German. Being hurt by Jake. Dating Paul. They were not regrets.

The woman recognized now that she had no control over the repercussions of these decisions now. And that she clearly was in no emotional state to be in a relationship.

The German man listened the sheepish girl in a woman's body. The woman felt relief, and tried to sleep the rest of the night.

The next morning, the woman found out that the German was dating the friend with the baby.

Today was one of the hardest days of my life. The emotions were like nothing I have ever felt before. I reflected. I cried. A lot. And I realize that these emotions have nothing to do with Paul. And everything to do with the fact that I am late.

The one who is always fashionably early, is one month late.

So now, not only is their guilt for hurting him once, I unknowingly dumped all of my feelings on him while he is with someone else.

Granted, that girl will not make him happy, and he is too good for her, but it still sits on my conscience that I may have accidently hindered the course of their relationship. Had I known, I would have kept my thoughts to myself.

Did I mention that I have too much insight?

He supported me when I needed to date other people. I now will attempt to do the same.

Please, live your life with no regrets. I don't regret anything that has happened to me, or any of the decisions I have made, because they have shaped who I will be tomorrow. I believe in Soul Mates. I believe in Fate.


Searching for a sign of what to do next.
Emotionally worse off than I have ever been.

Sunday, November 20, 2011


Wouldn't it be nice if we could look in a crystal ball and just see 40 years from now? How will the decisions I make now affect my future?

Who will I be with? Where will I be working? Will I have children? What will the people I love be doing? What will the people I used to love be doing?

Did I make the right decision?

Right now, I am struggling with this. How can you ever know what repercussions your decisions have? Will the hurt I have caused lead to a greater love for those who I intended to better? Will it in turn leave me alone, to waste, by myself, because I attempted to be selfless?

I don't think of myself as a selfish person. I try to do things for others to make them happy. I think this is  weakness for me. I do put others before my own needs. I try to see down the road and do what is best for them.

How is this affecting where I will end up?

I ended my relationship today. Ultimately we hardly saw each other. Once a week is not enough for me, and in this case I decided I needed to be selfish. I want to be with someone who can offer me a little more time than that. I don't ask for the world, but I do ask to feel like I am in a relationship, and although I don't doubt that Paul loves (or.. loved) me, I do doubt that he realistically understood what I wanted. Maybe he did know. But right now, there is no way to change this and make it work.

I also see this as being slightly self-less because I was bringing this issue up every 3 or so weeks. This was about the 6th time it has come up. Each time I let him convince me that one day it would change. How long can one "wait it out" and "wait for it to get easier"? I have waited 5 months. I don't want to continue waiting for god knows how long. I would rather be alone.

It wasn't fair for me to be bringing this issue up every 3 weeks and put him through that. He deserves a girl who will be okay with his crazy schedule. Not one who starts to feel like a needy girlfriend (which is something I don't want to be).

Part of the problem? He didn't think there was one. That right there shows our difference in expectations. If this was continually coming up as an issue for me and he wasn't seeing it, then how are we to ever move past it? There was just no compromise.

How do I feel? I hurt. I am sad. I am disappointed in myself for falling and ultimately setting myself up for hurt... again. I knew from the start that we both had busy schedules and I tried to tell myself that we could make it work. I was wrong. I feel alone. I question love. I don't know what is real. I don't know what to feel.

I know that I don't want to turn to food to comfort myself. I think this is good and shows the growth that I have accomplished.

So here I sit, with my tears, wondering how long I will be alone this time, and maybe, just maybe, I made a huge mistake when I ended it with Matthias.

Who knows what the future holds. You can't change the past, and you can only learn from your mistakes.

If that means I will be alone, then so be it.


I find that when I am at my highest level of motivation (which comes and goes!) I am most prudent with my supplements. Here is a list of what I take and what I hope it does for me.
  • Multivitamin - to top off any missing vitamins not found in the everyday diet
  • Vitamin B12 - needed as I am a vegetarian, needed for regeneration of RBC's, manufacturing DNA and RNA, boosting immune system and lowering homocysteine levels
  • Calcium - maintenance of bone health, neurotransmition, and blood clotting, essential for dental health, and muscle contraction
  • Vitamin D - lowers LDL (bad cholesterol) and raises HDL (good cholesterol), reduces inflammation, helps with muscle maintenance and ensures absorption of all calcium. I strongly believe everyone (but especially seniors) should be on 1000 IU/day.
  • Glucosamine - helps to rebuild cartilage, reduce inflammation, and reduce joint pain.
  • Omega 3 - lowers cholesterol and risk of heart disease, reduces inflammation, reduces risk of Alzheimer's Dementia and Depression, helps to reduce the risk of certain forms of cancer as well as constipation
  • Iron - to treat iron deficiency anemia, which increases the amount of hemoglobin available to red blood cells, leading to increased oxygenation of the body
What supplements do you take?

Friday, November 18, 2011

Something to Do

Here is a great workout that can be done within an hour! Do it at the gym, at your home, with a partner, without a partner, however you want! Just get out and do it :)

Danielle created this workout and we did it in a tabata-style circuit, 20sec activity, 10sec rest, switching the circuit exercise for a total for 4 minutes. We both agreed something a little longer would be nice, so try kicking it up to 45sec activity and 15sec rest!
  • Warm up; 10-15min Cardio of your choice
  • Circuit 1; Cardio: Step, Strength: Bicep Curls
  • Circuit 2: Cardio: Tick-Tock with rubber ankle band (leaping back and forth kicking your legs out), Strength: Triceps (dips, kick backs, extensions)
  • Circuit 3: Cardio: Mountain Climber (try this on an upside-down BOSU - Killer!), Strength: Squats on BOSU
  • Circuit 4: Cardio: Jumping Jacks, Strength: Lat Pulldown
  • Circuit 5: Cardio: Step, Strength: Lumberjack (See Here, at 1min, 45sec, called "Twist")
  • Circuit 6: Cardio: High Knees, Stength: Assisted Pull-ups or Free Pull-ups
  • Circuit 7: Cardio: Skipping, Strength: Side Lunges with Bar
  • Circuit 8: Cardio: Your Choice, Strength: Dead Lifts with Body Bar and Shoulder Press
  • Abs: 5 min, your choice, plank, walking plank, side plank, side plank raises, bicycle crunch, plank twists
  • Cardio: 15min, your choice
  • Cool Down & Stretch
Let me know what you think of it!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Workout Buddy

I have, up until recently, always been a "loner" when working out. I never had anyone consistent that I could turn to, to come work out with me, join me on a run, ext... I trained for my half marathon alone, I ran all my long runs by myself, with only me as motivation.

This has only stopped me from going to the gym/doing a workout a handful of times this last year. I am good about getting my physical activity in. It is not a struggle any more to just get up and go, it has become a habit and it is hard for me to take a day of "rest".

A few weeks ago during Sunday Super Circuit (HELLO favorite class, EVER!) we were asked to partner up while going through the circuits. I was partnered up with a young woman and we proceeded to work through the stations. We would offer each other little snippets of motivation like "Almost done!" and "Push through it girl." It was pretty awesome. About half way through we started chatting about running and weight loss. Turns out we had quite a lot in common. At the end of our workout we exchanged emails and agreed that we would see each other at next weeks class.

For the last 4 classes we have pushed each other, encouraged each other and become gym-friends. YAY :) It is nice to finally know someone who is looking for the same motivation as you! We have done back to back classes, talked about running together and training for next years Woody's Half Marathon together, and it turns out she is in indoor soccer too (mind you she is in tier 1, the "good" tier). Pretty cool huh?

I am really enjoying getting to know what it is like to work out with someone else, and it has been a lot of fun so far!

Danielle, if you are reading this, Hi! You Rock! :)

I was a skeptic before, but I now appreciate having someone else working and sweating through it beside you.

Also feeling pretty motivated to try and lose the teeny amount of weight I have gained back (2-3lb since my lowest of 121.5lb). Trackin all my food, pushin hard at the gym, and trying to cut back on the chocolate. My goal is to get to 120. I am not sure how maintainable that will be, or even if it is possible, but I will try.

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Busy Days

My apologies for the lack of postage recently. I am in my second last clinical (!!!) and have been busy managing school work, exercise, and a personal life.

Last year when I started running I made a consistent effort to add exercise in to my life. I read somewhere that it takes 30 days to form a habit, and for 6 weeks I woke up for clinical at 5:30am, had a full 8hr day, and then went to the gym for 30-90min from Monday to Friday. It was exhausting. At this time, I was also managing a dog, and being the president of the nursing society. I did not have any extra time for dating, and I spent a lot of time reflecting on what it was I wanted out of life.

I fell in love with physical activity.

Nowadays, I workout 6 days a week, and it isn't hard to do. Yes. I am a full time student. With 2 dogs. A job. And Yes. I schedule time to work out. I have made it a part of my day and I consider it to be "me" time.

Here are a few tips on how to start out with a conscious effort to exercise:
  1. Plan your days; I plan my workouts by the month. I get my gym's class schedule, pick out the fun sounding ones, that fit my school schedule, and write them in my day planner in red pen. Sometimes I write down more than one, just so that I can be flexible.
  2. Try new things; My new love = spin class. You don't have to love everything you try, but get out there are try it! You will never know if you don't apply yourself.
  3. Set fitness goals; Eventually I would like to do an unassisted pull up. I am mustering up the courage to "officially" announce this as a goal so that I will make sure I reach it. Other goals could be a 5km, 10km, or half marathon run, a push up challenge, ext... Make sure these are FITNESS related, not weight related.
  4. Just move; Seriously, even walking a bit more each day is beneficial to your help. Do what you love and love what you do.
  5. Start small; That way you won't be overwhelmed.
  6. Have a backup; My back up is my elliptical, or my Jillian Michaels DVD's. By having a back up I am able to always be accountable to staying fit.
Hope you have a great long weekend. If the weather is nice wherever you are, get out and enjoy it! If the weather is chilly wherever you are, do something active inside!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Guest Post: Anna @ Diary of a Former Food Addict

A lovely guest post from a lovely girl :) Enjoy!

Hi I’m Anna and can be found over at Diary of a Former Food Addict. The short version of my story would be I lost a lot of weight. I mean a whole real lot, over 100 pounds. I did this with a nutritionist, and working out. I have struggled with disordered eating and self esteem issues for pretty much my whole life. Amie and I decided to guest blog on each other’s sites. I thought I would write a little about body image and it’s impact on practicing healthy behaviors.

I decided to admit defeat and get help in April of 2008 and started seeing a nutritionist. My behavior was out of control and I was beyond miserable. I was finally at that point of saying something has to change I am never going to just wake up and get it. I had to have my brain reset. I do not think everyone needs to see a nutritionist to be successful in their goals but I know for me I needed that guidance. The weight loss has of course been great, and what I initially wanted. What I have grown to value more though is the help I have been given in resetting my value system for my body and body image.

I was so disconnected from my body it took me about a year of work to be able to connect in any way shape or form. In learning to really dial into my hunger and fullness, to be able to pick up signs and clues as to what was going on with me took a lot of work and accepting just how disconnected I was. I also learned how to change my dialogue. I quit being self deprecating. I quit hiding my insecurities with humor and started to treat myself with respect. I also started working on my feelings of self loathing towards my body. I found some of the positive body image dialogues did not appeal to me. I did not want to just say I love myself, and I am perfect. That felt like a different sort of disconnect and denial. I wanted to be able to love and accept myself, flaws and all. Not just whitewash it with positive affirmations. Deciding what I wanted my dialogue to be helped me start changing my conversation with myself and reclaiming the discussion in general. My weight and body had always been a topic up for discussion. I took it off the table. It is my business and my business only.

Reclaiming my body image and redirecting the conversation internally and externally lead me to something I think is huge in changing your lifestyle. I was able to start practicing more self protective behaviors. I was better at being discerning of what is and is not a healthy choice for me beyond food choices and work outs. I also felt less like I had to apologize, defend, or explain my choices. I became more confident in making decisions for myself regarding my mental and physical health. I had some serious self doubt after ending up at over 300 pounds. You just do not really trust your judgment at that point or at least I did not. I began to rebuild my trust with myself and the behaviors I had been coaching myself about became more second nature. It has applied to multiple aspects of my life and I continue to learn better ways to protect myself and do what is right for me.

Every day is an exercise in doing the best I can. I allow for mistakes, and allow for positive actions. I still struggle with body image but I remain focused on making it better and not admitting defeat. I better understand now the links between body image, self esteem, and self protection and how all of them need to be nurtured to help you really believe you deserve the life that you want and do deserve. We all deserve success in whatever we want to achieve and we only have one body to do it in makes a lot of sense to do right by it and give it some respect. One of my few regrets is I did not understand this earlier. It would have spared me a lot of chocolate eating, bad boyfriends, and wasted time, but I also would not be who I am today so I suppose it is a wash because I can say honestly I am great with who that person is.

If you don't already read DFFA, I definitely recommend you start! Have a healthy week friends,

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Sciatica Update

I thought it would be a good idea to update everyone on how my sciatica has been over the past few months.

Quick overview for new readers: I first developed sciatica in March of 2011, but dismissed it as TOM cramping as I used to have severe back pain whenever it was TOM. The sciatica went on for about 3 weeks and then healed shortly after I started running. I had another flare up in June at the Biennial CFNU conference in Winnipeg, which was extremely debilitating in that I was in so much pain I was nauseous every morning from the stiffness. Once I got moving I was okay but I definitely did way too much sitting and the conference chairs where horrid.

After coming home I was sitting in my dad's massage chair and I couldn't raise the legs to 90 degrees to get a proper massage, I started crying from the pain and my dad said enough was enough and he would pay for me to go to the chiropractor. I started seeing the chiropractor (no longer reluctantly at this time because I was in so so so much pain that my quality of life was decreasing rapidly) and quickly began improving. The chiropractor told me that my hips were not aligned and this is what had led to the pinched nerve. He also said that it was probably from years of dancing as an overweight teenager and that although it was unfortunate that I was injured at such a young age, it was also reversible and better to find now as to not result in a degenerative arthritis in later decades.

There were times when I was unsure if I would be able to drive the 10 mins to my mom's house without having to stop. There were times I had to muster all of the energy I had to move my legs out of the bed to sit up in a fluid motion as to not aggravate the pain. There were times I questioned how I would live the rest of my life like this.

I am now seeing the chiropractor once every 2 1/2 weeks. I would say that my sciatica is about 97-98% healed, in that I only get twinges of back pain if I cross my legs for too long or am sitting in the wrong positon.

What I am trying to get across with this post is .... People, please do not take your back for granted.

I am grateful every day for the ability to sit with my legs straight out in front of me, for me to be able to drive my car long distances and not have to shift my weight every minute, for my ability to get up and walk without having to shuffle along like an old person until the stiffness dissipates.

I am not saying that I will never have a flare up again, in fact I am sure that I will. In the mean time I work on strengthening my back and core, as well as maintaining my activity level and proper posture.

Back health is not something to joke about ... you only have one, and it has to carry you through your whole life.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Guest Post!

Check out Diary of a Former Food Addict for a guest post that I wrote!

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Recipe: Healthy Protein Balls

  • 100g Raw Cashews
  • 45g Dates
  • 1tbsp M&M's or Chocolate Chips of your choice
  • 1 Scoop Protein Powder of your choice
  • 2tbsp Light Maple Syrup
  • 1/2tsp Vanilla Extract
  • Stevia to taste
  1. In a food processor, grind your cashews into a powder.
  2. Add in protein powder, dates, maple syrup, vanilla, and stevia and mix together well.
  3. Add in chocolate chips.
  4. Form 10-12 balls.
  5. Freeze, Eat, or Fridgerate em'.
Based on 11 balls, and Allmax Peanut Butter Chocolate Chip Protein Powder
Calories: 85 Carbs: 8 Fat: 7 Protein: 4 Fiber: 1

Attempted to take the picture with my new phone - Samsung Galaxy S2. I see that I need to rotate the camera in order to get a vertical shot as it uploads horizontally!

Have a healthy weekend friends.

Just a thought:
"Fears over tomorrow and regrets over yesterday are twin thieves that rob us of the moment." - Anonymous

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Thinking Positively

I am a strong believer in the glass being half full. When I think about life in general, I think of the family I have that loves me, the friends I have who laugh with me, the education I have which is almost done, the dogs I have who unconditionally care for me (more so than me for them), and most importantly the health that I have worked for.

Some days, like everyone, I feel so down in the dumps. Like all of my successes and accomplishments will magically disappear and things won't work out for me. I get so scared that I shouldn't be this lucky.

Why do I deserve this good fortune? There are many other good people in this world with so much less than me. Sometimes it makes me feel quite guilty.

Then, like a refreshing breeze, I feel it.
And this is the thought that comes to mind:

Life is beautiful.

Life is good.

I read today, during my first day of clinical, that life is 10% what happens to you, and 90% how you react to it. It really struck a bell.

Yes, people are given different straws in the straw-box of life, but it is how we chose to respond that will make, or break, our short (very short) time on earth.

So, regardless of whether or not you have achieved your weight loss goals, regardless of whether or not you ended up working out today, regardless of your situation, recognize that you are beautiful, you are good. This can be the first second of the rest of your life. And I promise, that if you put your mind to whatever it is you want out of life, you will do it, accomplish it, attract it to you.

P.S. For those who have been following my nursing - today I found out that my final practicum has been confirmed at the Women's Penitentiary, and I couldn't be more excited! Bring on the learning!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Recipe: The Healthiest Banana Bread ... Ever.

I love me some bananas. I love me some choco chips. I love me some bread.

This recipe is almost vegan (the only thing containing dairy is the chips). It is moist, dense, and deliciously good for you.

  • 1 Cup All Purpose Flour
  • 1 Cup Quick Oats (I kept mine whole, but these could easily be ground into a flour and used)
  • 2 Ripe Small/Medium Bananas
  • 2 Tbsp Ground Flax Meal (mixed with 4 Tbsp water) or other Egg Substitute
  • 1 Container Motts Unsweetened Apple Sauce
  • Dash of Salt
  • 1 Tsp Baking Powder
  • 1/2 Tsp Baking Soda
  • 1 Tsp Cinnamon
  • 2 Tbsp (30g) Hershey's Mini Chocolate Chipits (Carob chips could be used to make this completely vegan)
  • 1.5 Tsp Apple Cider Vinegar
  • 1/2 Cup Almond Milk
  • 100g (3.5 oz) So Delicious Vanilla Coconut Yogurt (optional)
  • 1 Tsp Vanilla Extract
  • Stevia to taste (I used 3 "squirts" of liquid Vanilla Stevia)
  1. Preheat oven to 365F. In a small bowl, combine Almond Milk and Apple Cider Vinegar. Set aside. Grease 2 mini loaf pans or 1 regular loaf pan with cooking spray.
  2. Combine dry ingredients (except chips).
  3. Using electric mixer, add in wet ingredients and combine until well incorporated.
  4. Stir in chips.
  5. Dough will seem fairly "wet", this is okay! Pour into pan of choice. Bake for 45min. Check using toothpick to see if it is done. Bake until toothpick comes out clean, depending on your oven: 45-60min.
  6. Let cool, Slice, and Enjoy!
Nutritional Information:
Based on 1 Large loaf cut into 12 slices, or 2 Small loaves cut into 6 slices each.
Cal: 116 Fat: 2g Carbs: 21g Protein: 3g Fiber: 3g
Like the Vanna White Display of my Mini Loaf? Yeah. I knew you would ;)
No added oil .... No added sugar ... No compromised taste!

Saturday, October 22, 2011

A Day of Eats and a ..... DUATHLON?!

Oh. Dear. God.

I just signed up for a Duathlon.

July 22nd, Canmore, AB. (Click the Image for more info!)
3.5km Trail Run. 40km Bike. 10km Run.

Pretty excited actually ... Thank goodness I have lots of time to train! I am fairly certain I have no idea what I have gotten myself in to, but hey, no pain, no train, no gain?! I Think?

Decided to post a day of Eats for you. It is something I don't normally do. Let me know what you think!

Breakfast: Pumpkin Oats (Oats, Canned Pumpkin, Banana, Chia Seeds, Ground Flax, Almonds & Dried Cranberries)
Lunch: Fried Squash, Carrots, Onion, Avacado, Orange Peppers, Mushroom & Tomato on Salad with Peas & Thank You Mmmm SauceDinner: Carrots, Asparagus, Okra, Peppers, Onions, and Garbanzos on Pasta with more MmmmSnackage: Mandarin, Motts Apple Sauce, Dark Chocolate, and a Grande Soy 1 Pump Mocha Cafe Misto with Orange Extract